Jordan’s Journey

I was born in Liverpool, to a big traditional Catholic family. I have four brothers and two sisters. We all lived in a 4 bedroom house; needless to say it took some time for me to get my own room. I was about 12 when I moved into my younger sister’s room, and that’s when it started. Exploring all the furniture in the room I found some makeup and clothes she’d left behind. One night, on impulse, I tried them on. I wasn’t the bravest, most confident boy, but when I tried my sister’s stuff on – well, I felt different. Happy, content, at peace with myself, and totally different to when I was at school. There, I was picked on for reasons unknown to me.

Time passed, and I moved to live with my older sister who lives near Bournemouth. I got a job, made some friends at the local pub, and never thought about dressing as Jordan (as she was to be named). The years flew by, my job became more encompassing, and I never had much time for (or success with) women.

When my parents and younger brother moved down, the chance to express Jordan never arose. Until one day at work, a friend asked if I wanted to share a flat with him in Bournemouth. I jumped at the chance, to finally flee the nest when I was 27.

Stepping Out Secrets

It was in this flat the urges to dress arose. I had little money, but with my flatmate out with his family I tried to pretend I could dress up using a bed sheet, folded and wrapped around me. It was one of the best nights I had, when skint. Unfortunately, this too wasn’t to last, as he got a girlfriend, moved out, and I moved back into my parents house.

Back to the old routine; get up, go to work, come home, eat change, and go the pub. Day in day out. No chance for me to be me. But work was going really well, I was enjoying it.

Then my mum died, of an incurable disease, and that threw me off track for a bit. I was a bit lost. I had my own room and a mobile phone, and used that to call sex lines, and sought gratification that way. Not my best idea. And I still had no way of dressing up. Not with two brothers and my dad in the house.

Then my life changed again; I met a lovely young lady, and fell in love. The first night we spent together was in my eyes magical, though she might disagree (but I ain’t asking her). It was a whole lot better than all the other liaisons I had ever had. None of them even came close.

Work then threw up a curve ball as I was sent on trips to Frankfurt, New York and Australia. It was while I was in Australia that I got a job on a year long assignment. Upon returning home and telling my girlfriend, there was an argument, and things went south rapidly.

In time we did, however, manage to sort it out, and with my older sister’s help she came to Oz with me. It was bliss, perfect, the two of us alone. It was here that Jordan was truly born. I can’t remember how it came out, but one night I told her about my dressing like a female. Amazingly, she didn’t freak out, so on-line we went and a few days later some clothes arrived for me. Knickers, bra, stocking, skirts, tops, makeup, wig, the lot apart from shoes. My size 13 (UK) feet don’t seem to fit into too many shoes at the moment. In any case, Jordan was born, and came out on several occasions where we would have fun. Sexual fun, both ways, all types. Involving toys, etc., etc. It was the happiest time of my life to that point.

Then back to England we came after a year, and we moved into a house not far from our jobs. Jordan was forgotten for a while. Then on impulse I opened a box, we had brought our stuff back from Oz, and found the clothes and everything else in it. This set me off again, aged 33. Since then I’ve had times when Jordan would be out when I was alone. She would see Jordan rarely, though she would see the parcels that were delivered.

We got married, and were able to move nearer to work. It was here that the real Jordan started appearing, sadly though not in front of my wife. Clothes, makeup, perfume, handbags everything would arrive. Apart from shoes, the one downfall, the one thing I wanted the most. The last barrier. The last thing on Jordan`s wishlist. Would I ever be able to find a pair that fit me? I didn’t. But my wife did.

We were in France for a wedding, and a drunken me mentioned how it would be impossible to get shoes for my feet, when a conversation about stilettos and how hard they are to wear was started.

Surprisingly, once back home, my wife went online and bought a pair for me. Utter joy, as I tried them on as soon as I could, in her presence. We then both went to our bedroom, and Jordan was brought to life again. My wife and Jordan went downstairs and watched some telly – bliss. I was happier again, comfortable, at ease.

In the years since, she has bought me 3 more pairs of shoes, and still, I managed to keep Jordan hidden for the most part. Only recently has this come to a head, and we have had a discussion about her. The time has come for Jordan to be out more often, but only in the house for the time being, while we work things out between us, and start the process of telling family and friends. This is the scary, for Jordan to be introduced to the wide world.

My wife is scared of losing family and friends, but is resigned to the fact that some won’t get it.

This is me. I’m Jordan and I’m happier now. I feel at ease.

With my wife`s encouragement, and knowing that no one can hurt me, I’m sure Jordan will be out in the world at some point in time.

It has taken a long time for her to get this far. But she’s certain she’ll be happier once the whole world has seen her.

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  1. Pieter Botha 5 days ago

    I want to be full woman

  2. Lovely story Jordan. My ex was not accepting or even tolerant. I’m happy for you that yours is! Thanks for sharing!
    Cyn

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      Jordan Runyard 5 days ago

      Hi Cyn,
      Unfortunately, not everyone understands. it`s a shame, but i hope your happy with where you are at the moment. Thanks for reading it.
      Luv
      Jordan

  3. Brianna Rain 6 days ago

    I loved reading your story, Jordan. Thanks for sharing it. You are so lucky to have such an understanding wife.

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      Jordan Runyard 6 days ago

      Thanks Brianna. I`m glad you liked reading about Jordan so far. I`m sure there`ll be more article`s about how i get on. Yes I am lucky with my wife being so understanding.
      Luv
      Jordan

  4. I adopted an I don”t care attitude regarding what people think and surprisingly everyone is supportive female coworkers bring me makeup my daughter gave me jewelry only one coworker ever said a thing and that how can I take you seriously dressed like that, I pass mostly but like it too much to ever stop: good luck and bless you!

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      Jordan Runyard 6 days ago

      Hi,
      I suppose we all have our own approach, and not all will work for everyone. I`m glad you read the article.
      Luv
      Jordan

  5. Joannab Beaumont 6 days ago

    Wow! What a lovely insight into Jordan’s beginning and early days.
    It’s wonderful when ones wife participates and helps with clothes, make-up,shoes etc., and you want to shout to the world how happy and content you are, I think we are probably all the same on this point, I know that’s how I felt. But just a very gentle word of warning, go easy on who you tell and when. It’s so important to look at things from our wives perspective, they have to live with our actions and at times suffer the consequences.
    Enjoy life Jordan. xx

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      Jordan Runyard 6 days ago

      Hi Joannab,
      Thanks for reading the article, and the word of warning. The wife and I discussing how & when I will be revealed to family and friends. First off though we both want to see what Jordan will look like once she has a full makeover done. That way we can set my look to meet the occasion. We won`t be rushing the coming out, and will plan it carefully, with those who`s reaction won`t be upsetting. Small steps, but that is the best way forward we feel.
      Luv
      Jordan

      • Joannab Beaumont 6 days ago

        Yes small steps, you’re quite right.
        I wish you bothall the luck and love in the world.
        Joanna. xx

  6. Paula1 1 week ago

    Hi Jordan thankyou for your story, I really loved reading it, I’m so happy for you that your wife is so cool with everything,

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      Jordan Runyard 7 days ago

      Hi Paula,
      Thank you for reading it, and liking it. Yeah, i think i`m lucky with my wife being happy with this. Not sure what would have happened otherwise.
      Luv
      Jordan

  7. keely barton 1 week ago

    Thanks for shearing your story, its amazing and helps me find the courage to be Keely more often.

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      Jordan Runyard 7 days ago

      Hi Keely,
      Glad you read it, i was keeping it quiet till i knew when it would be posted, as didn`t want to give anything away. If it gives 1 person some encouragement, then great. We sometimes just need a push. Hope everything with you is ok.
      Luv
      Jordan

  8. ANDREA RAVEN 1 week ago

    Hi Jordan, lovely story, told from the heart. You seem to be on the right track with a very supportive wife, the next part of your journey has begun, enjoy the ride!!

    Andrea x

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      Jordan Runyard 1 week ago

      Hi Andrea,
      Thanks for the lovely message. I had the wife read it before i submitted it. Think she nearly cried.
      Luv
      Jordan

  9. fiona moss 1 week ago

    wow! what an amazing story! Its lovely to hear your wife gets involved, it makes the situation so much easier. you have certainly had an awful lot to deal with and with so much going on in your life. I wish you a truly happy future together.

    love fiona xxx

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      Jordan Runyard 1 week ago

      Hi Fiona,
      Yeah, my wife is a real star, and i always tell her that. There are some things that i left out of the article on purpose, the real dark day`s. Having said that, we both know where this is going, she even mentioned about getting a proper picture of me, to add to my profile. She is so thoughtful.
      Thank you for reading the article.
      Luv
      Jordan

      • fiona moss 1 week ago

        hi Jordan. I enjoyed every word of it, superbly written and a happy ending! just what every girl wants 🙂 . take care hun 🙂

        fiona xx

  10. PY Marshall 1 week ago

    Jordan ,I wish you and the very special lady you are married to, all the best on you’re journey. My wife and i had managed to keep it from our 2 girls for 30 yrs but we live out in the country and because our youngest could not get her car into the garden because the big gates were closed and she knew i would be listening to my music on the big computer she walked to the window and looked in and their i was sitting changed. i let her in and she never batted an eyelid .A few weeks later we had a wee fall out and she decided to tell a family member and a friend or friends. she is still in the huff and will not tell her mum who she told . We also have my wife’s mother living full time with us and she has known since the start with no issues.We 3 have decided to hold rank with our heads up high and take what comes. PS, I did not choose to be like this ,but it is a very natural and comfortable part of me . Which i know, I can’t change until i am dead. once again good luck. Py xx.

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      Jordan Runyard 1 week ago

      Hi PY,

      Thanks for the message. I`m sure the journey will be much easier with the wife`s support.

      Luv
      Jordan

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