As I sit here in my red dress, with stockings and heels, and pretending that I’m at my job as an office secretary, I cannot help but to feel that this is an important part of me. I knew from a very early age that I was different from what I appeared to be. I started to explore that other side of me whenever I had the chance to become Katie.

I started by wearing some of my sister’s clothes. As I got older, the urge to become the female side of me began to become stronger and I would get women’s clothes wherever I could and go out to a nearby woods and dress. This gave me great pleasure and put me in touch with the person I knew I was all along, a female.

Once I was finally on my own, I had to be careful for long periods of my life. I kind of pushed my female side away. But now, as I am getting older, the urge to rediscover myself and bring back my true feelings, my desires to be the female side of me is stronger than ever. I’m giving in to becoming Kate more and more each day.

The problem is that I have not been able to finish the journey and be where I need to be. I am so afraid of the fallout; what would happen if I were to come out now. I fear losing my family and the friends I’ve had all my life. So for now, Kate lives in her own prison, but she is starting to explore leaving the safe haven of my home. I have begun to feel bolder as I go out as Kate, but I do not expose her fully. I hide her by wearing things that disguise her in the hopes that no one outs me.

When I am out as Kate now, I feel as she might with my body shape as hers, and it puts me in a good frame of mind about myself and that this is who I am meant to be. I hope that someday soon, I will have the courage to seek the right help to allow me to deal with this and to be able to finally start on the journey to free myself from this self-imposed prison. I will then be able to have my mind, body, and soul together as one, completing the path to who I truly am, and that is as the female I was suppose to have been my entire life.

I appreciate any support or advice.

Thanks,

Kate

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Katie H

Hi I am Katie and have known that I was her from a very young age. I have been cross dressing since that time even before I was into my teenage years. As time has gone on my need to start on the journey to become a complete woman has been pulling on me stronger all the time. Now at an older age I know I need to start that journey soon. When I can finally get the courage to finally step out and be free to be that completed woman I will rejoice with all of my new sisters. Much Love Katie H

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  1. Emily 3 months ago

    Great story, and very similar to mine and many others I have read about. Thanks so much for being brave enough to share it. Enjoy the journey. Take baby steps. The more you become comfortable with Katie, the more natural she will feel. Life is short, be who you were created to be.
    Emily

  2. Alicia C 3 months ago

    the coming out part is always harder when you are looking forwards at it, rather than behind. Going out in public with a group of gurls is a good first step to test the waters. first time was scary, 2nd time less so, 3rd was like when can I do this again it was fun being me ! With that confidence other steps becoming less challanging. we all think no one will accept us, sometimes that might be accurate but more often its just fear. you have to honestly judge that. I also quit caring about what others think. own it, own yourself. when you look back, you’ll be more disappointment you didn’t it… going out has also been a great confidence builder too which has carried over into plain life too. hang in there, one step at a time 🙂

  3. Leonara 3 months ago

    Katie,
    Your article is very similar to my experience… I too feel I am in prison hoping Leonara will be one day be free … I wish you a safe journey whereever that may lead…please keep us posted on your next step…Leonara

  4. Annette Cross 3 months ago

    Thank you for sharing Katie, I hope with all my heart that you can find what you has been looking for so long and that you can finally be completely happy. In many aspects you history is our history.

  5. *skippy1965(Cynthia) 3 months ago

    Katie-slowly , slowly the prison walls push outward until one day you find that what you once thought walls were actually just the doors to your future! You will know when the time is right to tear down the remnants of what once constrained you.
    Cyn

  6. Renee Rose 2 months ago

    Katie,

    What a pretty name! My sister’s name is Katie.

    Thank you for your post. I am starting to show the world, and my wife, a bit more of Renee each day. I have been afraid my entire life. Afraid of being found out. If someone finds out I’m…different…then they will reject me. Perhaps they will tell others and then I’ll be ostracized.

    At 53, I’m beginning to run short of fucks to give. I like seeing my toes painted. I like (love) smooth hairless legs. I love wearing clothes typically reserved for women. I want to show up as a beautiful, strong, and respectable woman. I am also a beautiful, strong, and respectable man. I can and will be both because this is who I am.

    Thank you for the courageous post. It hit me right in the solar plexus. Many of us struggle with acceptance. I want to tell you to hang in there. Your time is coming. Be courageous and bold. Develop the woman within. We are here with you.

    Peace and warmth to you.

    Renee

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