Living my dream has been great thus far. For a long time, I knew something wasn’t correct with me. Growing up was tough for me, and I finally found it when I was five, knew I was born in the wrong gender. I always wanted to be like my mom and two younger sisters. I couldn’t come out at the time, so I hid it. I felt it wasn’t the right time, I didn’t know what my parents would say if I did.

I continued to live my life as male and tried to fit in. I had good friends in my life. During my high school years, I did dress as female a few times, and I saw this was me. I thought I was a crossdresser and was not. I continued to hide everything, and it worked for the moment. I knew it would not work one day.

I was married and living the good life. My ex-wife and I were going at it in a discussion about me. She suspected something about me wasn’t right. I lied, telling her nothing wrong with me. I was in denial after that, which would come back to bite me.

My family grew more concerned about me; I wasn’t ready to come out. My friends were even concerned about me, too. My college years, I hid it more, suppressing the feelings, and pretending that I got over it. I knew it wasn’t going to last; the feelings would come back eventually.

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After college life and getting hired at a law firm, I thought I had the typical macho male life. I tried being one of the guys. It worked at first, and this was in 2001. Then in 2004, I met my ex wife Tina. She never suspected I was transgendered. I hid it from her even when we got married in 2007. After the first year of marriage, it was the same. I did crossdress secretly, and it included trying on her clothes. I was careful to put them back the way she originally had them.

Then in 2017, she had the suspicions about me, and we were at it a lot about it. It was finally resolved with us working things out. It came back up again in December 2017, and then I realized it had to happen; to come out and face the tons of guilt feelings from the past. I hurt inside and knew it wasn’t going to be easy to come out.

There was a good thing to happen as I got in touch with the local LGBT support group in my area, which was the right thing to do before I came out. They were a great help in giving me great advice on what to do and what not to do. I even heard stories from other transgendered people, which gave me advice, too. So finally on January 1, 2018, I had the courage to come out to my family at the age 39. I did tear up and my family recognized the pain I’d been feeling for a long time. They accepted it, and they came on the support wagon for me. My ex wife and I separated, eventually divorcing.

It was in January of 2018 when I was diagnosed with gender dysphoria. I knew I needed to transition and began taking the steps in February of 2018. I had the FFS and breast augmentation in September. Life has been great including a that from a supportive boyfriend, Aaron, whom I met in March of this year.

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    Jennifer Freems

    I am a pre op mtf transsexual.I started my transition a year ago which has been going good.Realized there was something about me that needed to come out,felt I was born the wrong gender all my life since I was born.

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    Amy Myers
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    4 years ago

    Thank you for sharing your story, I’m sure it wasn’t easy, but nothing in life ever seems to be. I’m glad that you have found yourself after so many years of denial. Now you can move forward with happiness!

    skippy1965 Cynthia
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    4 years ago

    Congratulations on getting to that point of self acceptance so you could finally live as your authentic self. It’s something that each person has to do on their own timetable. Some are fortunate to get there sooner in life;for others it is not until later; and for many unfortunately They never get there. And by there I don’t necessarily mean full transitioning but instead I mean getting to the point that is right for Them individually. Thanks for sharing your story Jennifer!

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