Crossdressing is one of my favourite things. I’m not entirely sure why that is but these days I tend not to question it as I have finally made peace with it. Like many people I started at a young age, possibly between the ages of 5 and 8. I only started getting good at it in my mid twenties when I discovered eBay and was able to purchase wigs etc and establish a look. The most difficult thing about it is the secretive aspect. I wish I had opened up to my wife a lot sooner. I’m sure you all know how tricky that potential conversation can seem. Somehow I managed to keep it from her for 11 years and she was genuinely surprised when I told her. It was a revelation and a half. To her credit she has been as supportive and understanding as she can be and in this I realise I am very lucky. We have two young children too but I doubt if they’ll be finding out about it soon.
It gave me the confidence to come out a little bit more, creating in the process an elite group of folk to whom I’m able to lean on or talk things over with. I know I’ve been able to do this via social media for years but it’s not the same as physical interaction. A couple of years after coming out to my wife I grew tired with Facebook and started a blog on WordPress in an attempt to work through my curious habit in word form. So far I haven’t come any closer to understanding but through writing about it I definitely feel more at ease. I’ve started to include poetry as well as musings and the ubiquitous photographs. This in time led me to plan my first ever night out which to date is the most exciting thing I’ve done as Anna. Dinner in a normal restaurant with a friend from work and then cocktails. Bliss! My next step is to take Anna to the stage – the cabaret stage to be precise. My online name for years has been Anna Secret Poet and I reckon it’s time I lived up to the moniker properly. My love of performing can finally be consolidated with my feminine urges and I’m giddy with excitement! I’ve been pitching it to people as a ‘drag poet’. There’s a gap in the market I’m sure and I’m more than willing to fill it. Obviously I don’t know how this will go down – it may be terrible. I’m going to give it my best shot though. I’ve been stockpiling material for a few weeks now and have even been given my first gig. That is due to take place in under 2 weeks and I shall be performing alongside burlesque dancers, magicians, comedians, musicians and all sorts of other weird and wonderful people. I can’t wait!