The old Chinese proverbs talk about the yin and the yang. We are all possessed with both the yin and the yang, or the female and the male. It is when we are born that one of them dominates and that is what our outward appearance is going to be. But that is not to say the one that is not the dominant trait will not come alive at one time or another. And it all depends on how we acknowledge that fact as to how we wish to live our lives.

I grew up in a house with four sisters and my mom and they all had an influence on me, whether I admitted it to them or not. From around my early teenage years, I remember being somewhat jealous of all of them because of all the pretty clothes they got while I was getting the usual boy things. I was happy that they were so happy but deep down I wished that some of them were mine. When I got to be 15 I knew that I had to see for myself just how they looked on me. So when I had time to myself I took a few things out the see how they looked. It was so wonderful to see how they fit and how they felt. After that, any chance I got I wanted to try things on, making sure that I only took things that looked like they would fit me, considering that all of my sisters were different heights.

There were a few times that I almost got caught wearing something, and even though it scared the daylights out of me, I couldn’t seem to help myself. As they all got older, (considering that I was the oldest) their tastes began to change and that only gave me more options to try on. Whether it was dresses, skirts, blouses, or lingerie, there always seemed to be something to try on and indulge my fantasies. And even when going out with girls, I always seemed to compliment them on what they were wearing, which made them feel good. I guessed then that making women feel that someone was paying attention to their appearance made them feel good about themselves.

Time marched on and I got married and stopped dressing up, but I still paid attention to clothes. About 10 years ago the urges started to come back. But now since I had a good job, I was able to start to create my own little wardrobe. Just a few things at first, all the while getting stares from sales girls when I went in to buy lingerie or looking at racks of clothes. I was a little timid at first but now I feel so comfortable shopping for myself that I just smile back at them.

Meanwhile, I feel the genes that have been passed down from my mom make me feel so happy about the choices I have made for myself. And to slide on, whenever I can, those Gloria Vanderbilt jeans lets me feel that the women in my life are so lucky to put these on anytime they want. I don’t go out in them but I feel like a woman when they are on. That’s when I know that the yin is coming to the forefront. And that’s OK by me.

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Leslie Ravenous
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Awesome article. It is crazy how we go through life with these feminine feelings thinking that we are alone. Our life journey seems very much the same.

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It really is crazy i started experiencing about 12 years old when my older sister started wearing sexy panties and lingerie and that was itvi fell in love with the feeling. Eventually she caught on and i told her what i was doing and she was cool with it to my suprise. But in the end she couldn’t keep my secret. To bad I can’t trust my own sister

Kristinaaz Redding
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I enjoyed your article. Identified with it. Thanks for sharing

Kim Paige
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Renee,
Thanks for sharing this! No matter how many different posts like this I read, I’m always surprised by how easily I relate to them! So comforting to read!!
Kim

Leonara
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Renee,
Thank you for writing an article to which so many girls can relate, especially yours truly… I also liked your previous article Dress with Confidence… Please keep your articles coming which are so welcome to CDH…

Stephanie Donaldson
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Nice. I like how you do YOU.

Kara Kelly
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Great article, Renee.

Nolene Venus
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Thank you for the encouragment i gained from your article i started loving my feminine side very late but am learning so much from this forum nolene

Sandra Nichols
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Renee
Thank you for sharing. I too have been dressing almost all my life. I have one sister and two brothers. Well as the youngest I shared a bedroom with my sister until about eight years old. She is 10 older than me. I would wear her clothes and dress like her and wish I was her

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Great article, Renee. You must get tired of all of us that say we agree with you. But it IS so very true. Life is totally mysterious. Just look at all the gender variations in the natural world. No one should get hung-up about it. Just try to do what feels right and seems to make you happy. You just can’t worry and be in turmoil about it. Self-acceptance cannot be denied. Enjoy life’s journey to the best of one’s ability.

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