Ok, so I have dabbled in dressing out in public, but only driving the car wearing lady’s clothes and never getting out. I’ve been lucky enough in the last year to do a few long distance journeys on my own. A couple of the trips were from one end of the country to the other. About three months ago, after many years of struggle, it struck me that I was a crossdresser and did not want to transition to a woman. I made the decision to go all out in my effort to pass En femme at some point in the near future. I started to plan a night out at the local crossdressing pub in Norwich, using an excuse as a photo walk with a local club I am with.
I started to purchase all the things I would need for the event. The items would make me look and feel as close to a woman as I could make myself. I purchased hip pads, foundation (challenge to find my match), eyebrow pencil (I am lucky enough to have light and quite feminine brows for a man), nice cherry lipstick, eyeliner, and mascara. I also bought some jewelry (small hoop earrings and some nice bangles, which needed slight modification in order to fit my wrist. The final touch was a nice, passable, brown shoulder-length wig. I also bought some nice everyday black underwear and some comfy nude kitten heels.
The house was empty for a few weekends so I was able to practice my makeup skills, self taught as it were, in an area that I have never attempted before. The first foundation was far too light, and I never realised the eyeliner, mascara, and eyebrows were so hard to apply. After a few times, I started to get a reasonable result.
Then it happened; I had the chance to go out to the cinema, on my own, to see a one off showing on a Monday night in December. A slight change of outfit was needed; something a bit more casual. I chose a nice Joe Brown skater dress, Cami top, and casual ladies trainers. I also bought a nice scarf, clutch bag, and a pair of fake glasses to help with the look.
The night came, and I shaved as close as possible. I also shaved my arms as I don’t have much hair on them, and I thought I could get away with it. There was no chance with the legs, but I felt the tights should do. There wasn’t any chance to get sorted at home so I left early and found a quite lay-by on the way. Beard concealer and basic makeup applied in the car using the vanity mirrors—fun times for our cause, but I think I pulled it off. Pulling into the car park, the last thing to go on is my wig. I needed the foundation to dry as I found that the fine strands of the wig stuck to my face. No-one tells you about these fine details.
And so; I stepped out of the car…
I have never felt so exhilarated. I felt awesome and empowered and not nervous. This is what I should have done years ago, and I wanted to enjoy it. It was very quiet, I admit (Monday night at a cinema), but there were people about. A lone woman checked me out with a quick scan. Was that a catty look? I really hoped so, and it gave me a kick inside. The rest of the evening went without drama, I wanted to checkout my look in the ladies room, but the quiet loos, near the entrance to mall, were closed. Just have to go with it this time as I was not going in the main cinema toilets. Not brave enough my first time.
I didn’t have to talk to many people, but I seemed to pass the whole evening. It was that or no one confronted me. I didn’t notice people gawping at me. Just remember to act and walk like a woman and be confident I told myself. What a fantastic experience, and one that I can’t wait to do again. I just need to make sure that I get all the makeup off before I get home.
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Thanks for posting this. I am planning to go outside and visit somewhere casual in the next couple of weeks. Can’t wait but I am sure I will be nervous.
Go somewhere you are comfortable with or that is cd friendly. Then just go for it. Have fun and let us know how you get on.
Hi Rachel and thanks for posting a great going out story. Once I get my makeup looking somewhat feminine I’ll try my best to step out for part of an evening!
Cool. Let’s us know how you get on and don’t leave it to long.
Hi Rachel, thank you for posting up your story! I love seeing where our sisters go out, love reading the stories about it, and stories like yours illustrate that it’s not nearly as fearful a thing as we often build it up to be in our minds beforehand. Congrats & cheers hon! ❤
Yes. This really helps us all out
Congrats on getting out and about Rachel!
That’s a huge step for any crossdresser….go out and about, get rid of their inner fears and replace them with great memories.
I hope this first experience serves as a springboard for many other outings.
I haven’t done my debut in public yet but I’m feeling it’s closer than ever…..and the feelings I have are quite similaar to yours right before your endeavour.
Well done you. Lovely to read and very happy for you XX Clare
Rachel, I love your story. I remember my first time. But it feels so right. I went through the struggle of thinking I was transgender also. But realized who I really am
This is almost the exact same experience as my first time out! Movie and all 🙂 Thank you for sharing!
Cool. It was a great moment in my cd time
Rachel; wow thanks for the story and postings as well – it was very hard to do and well worth it also – it took me several weeks to finally get up the nerve to get fully dressed and venture out and about – I got dressed and waited until it was somewhat dark outside so I could leave the house with nobody seeing me – I got in my car drove around for awhile to try and find a place that didn’t have a lot of people out and about walking around – I found the place sat there… Read more »