I went out dressed as Julie for the first time today, and it was so exciting I had to tell you all about it.

A bit about me; I’m 56 and like so many of us, I started crossdressing around 10. I remember trying on my mom’s panties and how exciting it felt. I experimented over the years, eventually graduating to bras and tights. I’m a bit embarrassed to admit that I have worn the panties of every woman I have ever dated.

I have been married for 25 years to a wonderful woman. About 10 years ago, I started to secretly buy my own lingerie. I would sometimes “underdress” at work. It remained an occasional thing, and then five years ago my wife found my lingerie stash. This led to some interesting conversations. I admitted my habit to her. She was initially shocked and upset, went through the typical range of thoughts; thinking I was gay, etc. I assured her I wasn’t and that this was just a small part of who I am.

I ended up purging my sizable collection of lingerie and vowed to stop dressing. (You can guess how that went…I couldn’t do it.) I NEEDED to dress. Eventually, my wife said she understood, but she wanted no part of Julie. I guess I am lucky she was that understanding. I began buying lingerie again.

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A couple of years ago, something changed, and I felt the urge to take it to a new level. I started buying dresses, skirts, tops and shoes. I bought a pair of forms online. I found a fantastic CD boutique near my work and started going there on Friday lunch hours. The owner is fantastic, and I tried on whole outfits for her. She was the first person to ever see me dressed.

I also began selling some of my male clothes and using the money to buy lingerie and woman’s clothes; designer dresses, skirts and tops, stockings and garter belts, shoes, and clip on earrings. My wardrobe rapidly grew. I bought a dirty blonde bob wig from the CD boutique. I shaved my legs and arms. I work from home on Mondays, and I began spending the entire day as Julie. If I had to miss a week, I would feel anxious and frustrated. I started to dream of going out as Julie. I was definitely taking my habit to a new level.

Then the COVID-19 pandemic hit. Suddenly, I was trapped in the house with my wife and three kids, who were all home from school. For months, my dressing stopped completely. It was incredibly frustrating. I would sometimes lock myself in the bathroom for a quick 15 minute dressing session, but it was not enough.

Recently, the city has started to open up again. My wife is back at her office some days and my kids are moving out, which brings me to my first outing yesterday. My biggest fear has always been exposing my face. What if I see someone I know? What if it’s obvious that I’m a CD? Having to wear a mask because of the virus gave me the cover I needed to feel more comfortable.

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On a day when my wife left for work and my kids were out, I immediately showed and started to get ready. My legs are not shaved now because it is summer, so I had to wear tights. I wore a short mini skirt and a cotton sweater. I put on my earrings and some of my wife’s jewelry. Finally, I slipped into a pair of 4” black sling-back heels. I stepped back to look at myself in the mirror; I was ready and so excited!

I walked out the door, got into the car, and started driving. I went into a supermarket first to test the waters. I will never forget the nervous excitement as I got out of the car and started walking towards the market. There were people all about. I walked past several shoppers coming out. OMG!  I was in heaven! I walked all around and no one even looked at me sideways. I bought a couple of items and did the self checkout.

It was time to hit a women’s clothing store. I put my groceries in the car and walked over and into the store. I was greeted by one of the employees! I spent almost an hour browsing the dresses, skirts and lingerie, trying on shoes, walking around. Other women were all around me.  At one point, I had to use the bathroom and I used the ladies room!  It went well; I decided to drive to another, larger department store.

I parked intentionally far from the store and walked across the parking lot in my short skirt and heels. There was a breeze, and my hair blew in my face. I spent another hour walking all around. Unfortunately, the fitting rooms were not open due to COVID.

All in all, it was an absolutely incredible experience. The flood gates have burst open, and I will be doing it again soon and often! I can’t believe I waited this long.

I hope you enjoyed my story, and that it might help some of you girls, who are in my shoes, take the next step, and venture out.

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    Bettylou Cox
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    Bettylou Cox
    3 years ago

    Great story, Julie; and it’s good to read that your first outing was so successful – shopping and everything.

    Hugs,

    Bettylou

    Lucinda Hawkns
    Lady
    Trusted Member
    3 years ago

    wow i bet you felt great goin gout doors dressed up and being all you can be and ebjoying being female dressed up and shopping for female cloths. its great to go out and no one blinked a eye at you.. my wife now of my stash and tells me i can dress up for we have a 22 year old son still at home. i love dressing up as a female if i dont i get edgy and what to dress up just to feel better. i buy my own female stuff also.

    Lucinda Hawkns
    Lady
    Trusted Member
    3 years ago
    Reply to  Julie

    yes it was and now I don’t have to hide it from her and I feel that I don’t have to carry that heavy load on my back no more, also glade wife is some what excepting my cross dressing to a degree

    Alexandra Love
    Duchess
    Active Member
    3 years ago

    Julie thanks so much for sharing!! We have much in common and I am very happy for you!! Lots of love sweetie!

    Deborah Sullivan
    Lady
    Trusted Member
    3 years ago

    what a wonderful adventure and wish more girls here would try it too. Liberating and thrilling at the same time

    Deborah Sullivan
    Lady
    Trusted Member
    3 years ago
    Reply to  Julie

    Yes Julie no going back and your life has changed forever and for the best

    Mandy Wife
    Member
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    3 years ago

    Congratulations on your first outing! I never thought that a face mask may actually help – hubby has been out once (for all of 5mins) but the face mask rules may help with his self confidence so thank you for suggesting it and I hope you can get a balance with your wife xx

    Mandy Wife
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    3 years ago
    Reply to  Julie

    We are the same here – not really needed for walking down the street but people do – don’t want hubby to have to hide behind a mask but it’s the usual “what if I see someone I know" worries so it ,may help

    Mandy Wife
    Member
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    3 years ago
    Reply to  Julie

    I will make sure to tell him

    Philma Bierstein
    Duchess
    Active Member
    3 years ago

    I love your story Julie. On a rainy morning while on vacation a couple of weeks ago I went to the market in a long pleather a-line skirt and a women’s rain coat, hose and trim black sneakers. I agree, the mask I had to wear to enter the store gave me the cover I needed to try a public outing. I am so happy your outing went so well!! You are giving me the confidence to try again! You are wonderful!!

    I hope you get out again soon.

    XOXO
    ~Philma

    Amy Myers
    Baroness
    Noble Member
    3 years ago

    What a great experience, it reminds me of my first trip to a mall en femme. Good for you, and congratulations on a great day out!
    I like your comment about can’t believe you waited so long. That was exactly the same way I felt too, I wished I done this sooner in my life.
    Keep enjoying being out, and let us know how future adventures go.
    Amy

    Leah
    Baroness
    Active Member
    3 years ago

    good for you! nice to hear a successful going out dressed up

    Melissa Sue
    Lady
    Active Member
    3 years ago

    Julie,
    Thanks so much for the story. I enjoyed it so much. I have considered going out with a mask, but the chance has not presented itself, yet.
    Have a blessed day.
    Melissa

    Kathryn Lynn Peters
    Lady
    Active Member
    3 years ago

    Hi Julie, Great story. I had my first time out back in November with my wife. It was accidental in a way… we were going to a show in Orlando, about 50 miles away from our town. I was en femme for the first time ever in public and we thought a show would be the perfect introduction of Kathryn to the world. Well, we never made it to the show…a bad accident made us turn around and head back home. It was a major disappointment! On the way home, my wife asked if I were hungry. I said yes… Read more »

    Kathryn Lynn Peters
    Lady
    Active Member
    3 years ago
    Reply to  Julie

    Yes she is. Within a day of me telling her last Halloween night (after 20 years of marriage), she worked with me on clothes, makeup, shoes…you name it. I’m blessed to have her!

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