Dear friends

I am writing to let you that my mom passed away recently.

She had been stricken with cancer and I put her in hospice on January 6th.  I wanted to share with all of my friends, especially Vanessa, that before she passed away I told her I was her daughter. And although she probably knew because I look like a female she cried and said she accepted me and loved me and told me how beautiful I was to her.

My life will go on as a girl even though I’m alone now with no family. Knowing I have each and every one of you makes me feel loved.

I’ve learned that girls like us need to live each and every day to its fullest because we only get one life to live and no matter what society thinks we should just be true to ourselves.

Yes, it’s a sad time for me right now but I know that my mom is with God and healthy and beautiful. I know that she will always watch over me. The last words she said to me as I held her hand was that she loved me.

When I woke up to receive a phone call from hospice to let me know that she had passed, I realized that I needed to be strong and somehow get through this. I asked God for peace in my heart.

Please know that each and every one of us struggles with each passing day to live in a world where society frowns on us. Who cares that I’ve felt like a girl since I was 8 or 9 years old. Today, I have no regrets. Even though being a girl is hard work, keeping ourselves as feminine as possible, I want you all to remember that inside we are all beautiful and that’s all that matters.

Well, we are in a new year now and starting a new decade, so I hope each of you find health love and happiness in the coming days ahead.

When we were born we were crying and everyone around us was smiling, live your life so that when we die everyone around us is crying and we are the ones who are smiling.

Being a girl is not about what’s between our legs it’s about what’s between our ears.

Remember that Hood is a good thing because with Hope we always have something to look forward to.

I love reading all of your articles on here. I know how much all of you struggle on a daily basis because all we want is to be loved and accepted for who we are.

You are all beautiful! Thank you for your friendship and love!

❤️ Paige

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Honesty, I have felt like a female since ever I could remember and never thought of myself as a male. I truly love being a girl and being a female is so amazing. I live and work as a female. I love so many things like cooking, shopping, buying shoes, lol and enjoy anything romantic. I also love animals and going to zoos. I blend in with society and people see me as a woman and although it has taken me years to achieve my goals in life I can finally say that I am truly blessed and grateful for having the life I have.

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Jenna Stone
Active Member
1 month ago

Paige. I am so sorry for your loss. Take Care and stay strong. Hugs

Leslies Ann Gray Girl
Active Member
1 month ago

Paige , i to lost my mom , its been three years and i still miss her . She also knew about me and was accepting , i took care of her till her last moments , even now i still miss my momma . I wish you the best , it will be easier to live with , just takes time . Leslie

Celine Onaback
Member
1 month ago

Paige, I am so sorry for your loss. Take care and hugs.

Stephanie Aston
Baroness
Active Member
1 month ago

Dear Paige
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss, I can tell from your beautiful words that you are strong and having your mum looking over you will give you even more strength going forward.
in you article you say that “you are alone now with no family”, We are now your family and if you ever need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to or even let off steam to I’m sure you will find many family members here to help you out.
Pleas do take care.
love from a loving sister.
Stephanie xx

Janet williams
Active Member
1 month ago

O M G Paige You are so beautiful and soryy about ur mom and I know how that feels to lose a mother but u survived and look so good  

Janet williams
Active Member
1 month ago
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we gurl do know how hard life can be when a loved one passes away so stay safe and continue living ur life  

Jane Don
Member
1 month ago

Sorry for your loss–My mother died about 2yrs ago & I never really came out to her–Not sure if that’s good or bad–

Lucinda Hawkns
Active Member
20 days ago
Reply to  Jane Don

yes sorry for your loss Lane its hard to take and deal with, but we have to learn how to deal with it and move on with our life and never forget our mom or dad or a loved one. always keep them in your heart. remember the good times and what they taught you when you were young. keep them close to your heart. not sure if it was a good idea not to tell mom that you x dress or not. that will be a question that will never get answered, but i am sure your mom knows… Read more »

Last edited 20 days ago by Lucinda Hawkns
JudyCDTV
Member
1 month ago

Yeah Paige, I understand your loss, my mother just passed away last August, and I still dealing with her loss as her 1st born son. Take your time with grieving.

Lucinda Hawkns
Active Member
26 days ago

hello Paige, great words of wisdom. sorry for your loss also. I lost my mom then my dad 68 days apart from each other. when I cleaned up the stuff my parents left for my brother and me to go though. I took all my moms clothing with me and I wear them now. love the dresses and some skirts she left behind. why waist them. I have a post on my page here on C.D.H. please check it out. will tell my side of how I started. I am 57 years old and dress up every time I get… Read more »

Lucinda Hawkns
Active Member
20 days ago
Reply to  Paige

its hard to loos a loved one , but we all soon to move on with life but never forget our loved ones, they are always in our hearts. for trying to get rid of my moms dresses and some blouses, i could not do , they were the same size as me for my mom was a thin person like me. i must have her jeans thin and feminine looking. so i kept my moms dresses and skirts and one day tried them on and they fit just right. so when i wear them I know my mom is… Read more »

Sarah Shimmer
Baroness
Active Member
24 days ago

I am so very sorry for your loss Paige. A mother’s love knows no boundaries and they love us without judgement. I am glad you were able to say goodbye to her and hear her say that she loves her daughter. God bless you and your family during this difficult time.

Hugs Sarah

Lucinda Hawkns
Active Member
20 days ago
Reply to  Paige

you sure do have friends here to chat with when in need and we all have gone though loosing a loved one and know how it feels and how to deal with it. we know they are telling us to move on with your life and enjoy it to the fullest but always keep them in your hearts

Haley Ann
17 days ago

Paige, I’m sorry for your loss…I still miss my mother and it’s been years. However, I am somewhat consoled because I am much like her in many ways and the more I evolve the more I become, and in some ways look, like her. You sound like you were a good daughter and that you loved each other.

Haley

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