Sometime back, I wrote about a beautiful person who was struggling with many things. This individual has made leaps and bounds since that time. Most of you remember the articles I wrote regarding a new friend to us all. She has overcome so many fears and obstacles in such a short time; it’s incredible.

As it is said and heard many times throughout all of our lives “the proof is in the pudding.” Proving to our self and to others that when we allow our true passions to surface and face our fears smack in the face, we can hurdle the highest mountains and achieve our ultimate dreams, helping them to become our reality.

Nikki has made the ultimate sacrifices in this past two years. Some of which she is continuing to face and deal with. There is the struggle she endures with her soon to be ex-wife and children. She exerts much emotion when she speaks about her children. Their mother didn’t take the news well when she first learned that Nikki crossdressed and was gay. Nikki has suffered with pain, guilt, fear, resentment, anxiety, depression, anger, confusion, rejection, abandonment, thoughts of suicide and a host of so many more feelings.

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Nikki no longer goes home to a house filled with joy, laughter, or the sounds of children playing, nor does she have a wife asking how her day was, or what’s for dinner, or to discuss the evening plan. This girl loves her family and has refused to walk away entirely. As it stands now, the only requirement to visit with her two children is that she not come home in CD or Drag form. I think at one time or another we think we know enough about something to survive. I recently turned 60, and as I write this article it’s easy to reflect back to a time when I was scared as hell to come out as gay and that I preferred to wear girl’s clothes, makeup, heels, and all the other things we wear and do to represent as who we are.

Nikki asked for my help and support a couple of years ago. I have been by her side since day one, when I went with her to explain everything to her now ex-wife. And with all she’s been through, I have witnessed a beautiful flower blossom and grow to incredible heights. She now dresses 24/7, is going to beauty school, contributes all she can to the gay community, and is living with an awesome guy (who has asked her to marry him.)

I realize that not everyone who reads this will agree with the gay lifestyle, the drag queen lifestyle, or maybe even more of what Nikki’s new life is all about. I do wish for anyone who is still struggling with this exact same issue(s) peace, courage, and a sense of camaraderie. We all need to stick together, to help and support anyone in the same or similar situation, and to be the best sisters that we are capable of being.

Little Miss Nikki has done what so many are afraid to do, live a 24/7 life being a crossdresser and now drag queen. We do a lot together such as shopping, re-painting the inside of my house, going for drinks, and so much more. I am extremely honored to call her my sister in arms.

It’s possible for anyone to achieve the same goals as Nikki and those that so many others have achieved. Thank you for reading this article, and I hope that there is at least one sentence, paragraph or thought that help you if you are struggling.

Peace and Love,


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Hello I’m Jackie, also known as (Wild Child)..... Nick name well deserved. I pull no punches and don't shoot from the hip. In other words I say what's on my mind. I've been out since I was 17 as both a X Dresser and Gay. I'm also a Drag Queen and love it. Wondering where do I come in at a site such as CdH? Well it's simple really, all you have to do is think about it. There are many similarities between us whether you agree with that or not. I am always avail for good girl talk so hit me up anytime. C Ya at the show, Jackie.....

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Michelle Liefde
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Thank you for the article. I may not be in the exact place as Nikki but I wish her and you much happiness, peace, and love!

Dianne Baldwin

Very good article Wish Nikki all the happiest she deserves. My story is very similar but not as successful ending

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Great article and you are a great person for standing by

Tiff Any
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Lovely article , beautifully around love & support xx Tiff

Rochelle Mills
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Thank you, Jackie, for the beautiful article describing your love and support for a sister. Virtual hugs to you both!

Amy Myers
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Thanks for the great article, Jackie. I am not on the same trajectory as you, or your friend Nikki, but your story is inspiring none the less. Diversity is what we are all about, and to be honest with one’s self, and so many are afraid to.

skippy1965 Cynthia
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Great article, Jackie and please pass on my congrats to your friend Nikki. It is wonderful to see anyone get the chance to live their life as their authentic self even if it does cause angst and issues with family and life. Hiding who we are just internalizes the angst and everyone deserves to express who they really are. Thanks for sharing this story !

Ellie Mae

Jackie-I can certainly relate to the sacrifices you have made to live an authentic life. I too am recently divorced and rarely see my adult children who don’t know what to do with their 66 year old father who has recently come out as transgendered. It has been especially difficult with the holiday season and have been prey to bouts of grief as expressed by deep sadness and crying. Please reach out to me if you want to discuss things privately. Love you, Ellie Mae

Madelynn Fox

Thank you for this article and for this incredible story. I wish Little Nikki all the happiness. Everyone deserves joy and I hope help each other to get there.

Jenna Stone

Wonderful article. Thank You for sharing. I wish Nikki the best and sad that she lost her family but happy that she found someone and hope he brings happiness and love into her life.

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