Sometime back, I wrote about a beautiful person who was struggling with many things. This individual has made leaps and bounds since that time. Most of you remember the articles I wrote regarding a new friend to us all. She has overcome so many fears and obstacles in such a short time; it’s incredible.
As it is said and heard many times throughout all of our lives “the proof is in the pudding.” Proving to our self and to others that when we allow our true passions to surface and face our fears smack in the face, we can hurdle the highest mountains and achieve our ultimate dreams, helping them to become our reality.
Nikki has made the ultimate sacrifices in this past two years. Some of which she is continuing to face and deal with. There is the struggle she endures with her soon to be ex-wife and children. She exerts much emotion when she speaks about her children. Their mother didn’t take the news well when she first learned that Nikki crossdressed and was gay. Nikki has suffered with pain, guilt, fear, resentment, anxiety, depression, anger, confusion, rejection, abandonment, thoughts of suicide and a host of so many more feelings.
Nikki no longer goes home to a house filled with joy, laughter, or the sounds of children playing, nor does she have a wife asking how her day was, or what’s for dinner, or to discuss the evening plan. This girl loves her family and has refused to walk away entirely. As it stands now, the only requirement to visit with her two children is that she not come home in CD or Drag form. I think at one time or another we think we know enough about something to survive. I recently turned 60, and as I write this article it’s easy to reflect back to a time when I was scared as hell to come out as gay and that I preferred to wear girl’s clothes, makeup, heels, and all the other things we wear and do to represent as who we are.
Nikki asked for my help and support a couple of years ago. I have been by her side since day one, when I went with her to explain everything to her now ex-wife. And with all she’s been through, I have witnessed a beautiful flower blossom and grow to incredible heights. She now dresses 24/7, is going to beauty school, contributes all she can to the gay community, and is living with an awesome guy (who has asked her to marry him.)
I realize that not everyone who reads this will agree with the gay lifestyle, the drag queen lifestyle, or maybe even more of what Nikki’s new life is all about. I do wish for anyone who is still struggling with this exact same issue(s) peace, courage, and a sense of camaraderie. We all need to stick together, to help and support anyone in the same or similar situation, and to be the best sisters that we are capable of being.
Little Miss Nikki has done what so many are afraid to do, live a 24/7 life being a crossdresser and now drag queen. We do a lot together such as shopping, re-painting the inside of my house, going for drinks, and so much more. I am extremely honored to call her my sister in arms.
It’s possible for anyone to achieve the same goals as Nikki and those that so many others have achieved. Thank you for reading this article, and I hope that there is at least one sentence, paragraph or thought that help you if you are struggling.
Peace and Love,
Jackie.
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Wonderful Article As a cis-female I want to express that NOT all cis women are like that. I accept others for who they are regardless of gender or sexuality or lifestyle. My heart breaks when I see others in pain or alone and It is fantastic that she has your support and sisterly love. I am so happy to read that she has blossomed and found love and is living her life being true to herself. I believe all women should support each other. I try to be supportive anywhere I can. I can never truly understand CD/TG, but I… Read more »
Couldn’t possibly agree more. We are ALL in this TOGETHER United in sisterhood. Rock on Ruby and Nikki
Tiffany
Seriously damn straight Tiffany, we are all in this together whether your a cd, drag queen, transgender, gay or straight.
Your right Ruby no one should have to or try to hide who they are. There’s a reason why every boy begins putting on makeup and dressing in they’re mother or sisters clothes and heels and later they’re own things. It is simply because it’s who we are and what we are suppose to do and lifestyle we are to follow.
Ellie Mae,
I am so sorry for what you are going through.. I admire your conviction for your being you and being the woman deep inside.
I too have to make that decision to coming out to the woman inside..
You may message me anytime,
Leonara
Just like you Leonara to reach out and help someone struggling. Your such an awesome lady (and I do mean Lady). Love ya bunches.