Shifting sands

If we take a moment to look back at our past, we can see a shift in what can be perceived as a movement of some nature. That which has propelled us through numerous events and experiences, life’s lessons; call it what you will. In understanding how things have changed, moved, and occurred in our lives we’ve gained the ability to perceive the degrees of shift each time we look back and review them. This is true in how we think and act, who and what we have, reject, or allow in our lives and where we are on our journey.

I feel the need to put in perspective a period of my life that changed things in ways I would never have imagined or believed possible before that time. I believed I had an idea of where my life was going, in a fuzzy kind of way, but it never materialised. My life had been going around in circles. There I was picking myself up off the ground again and dusting myself down to begin all over again!

There are only so many times that you want to find yourself in that place! Perhaps it was my beliefs that were so deeply rooted and held onto? Maybe fear made me hold onto them for dear life, but it came at a price that cost me dearly over a long period of my life. Others also paid a price for being a part of that journey with me. None of us knows what the future holds when we enter relationships in good faith, with love, trust, and self-belief in our hearts.

Today is such a different landscape that it’s as if I’ve been transported to another universe. Nothing is the same as it was. I am not the same, every aspect of my life has changed in ways that are not easy to explain or define.

The wonderful part is that I am unquestionably the happiest I’ve ever been, with myself, where I live, and the love for and from the people now in my life. I believe and understand much of my life from my earliest recollection, who I am and what I am; what life was and is all about. My sense of purpose that I work towards daily, and how everything is linked together in a continuous cycle, even where everything is changing at the same time.

A Quantum life

Where I am now allowing me to be stronger in my character, mind, and strength. I am standing in my own truth, an expression I wouldn’t have used five years ago. It has filled me with confidence that allows me to grow and acquire knowledge. Who would have thought a thirst for that would increase with age. It certainly wasn’t part of my perception of what age brought into your life!

There is no doubt I am in a new phase of my existence, something which was confirmed through a new awareness of numerology earlier this year. What I have been discovering may be more powerful than that. Quantum science is changing the way we are learning to better understand and improve our knowledge of everything around us, ourselves included. In its consideration is that we are Quantum beings. I will try to explain how I arrived at that.

Imagine a vase of flowers sitting on a coffee table in the middle of a room. You sit at one side along with a few others around the table. Each can see the vase of flowers but the perspective for each is different. Different by the flowers you can see, how the light falls upon them, and the background beyond that you see. Each person has their own experience from their unique position.

This is a simplistic view of the basic concept of quantum science. Similarly, everything about us is unique, from our cellular structure to our physical appearance and fingerprints. Therefore, we are all the same but uniquely different in the same way.

My writing is a creative activity that I have always enjoyed and appear to have gained a flair for since childhood. I’ve been creative but focused on visual art and communication as a career direction. Although I didn’t view it originally in those terms it is exactly what I did and referred to as Graphic Design. I created works of art from personal greeting cards to canvases, written song lyrics, and poetry. My first guitar was given to me by a friend while at art college and I have never stopped playing since. I’ve recorded songs with multi-tracking, run a music club, played in groups, and sang. I love cooking and enjoy entertaining, creating my own dishes with the reward of seeing my guests clean their plates with a smile of satisfaction.

There is something special in creating and giving to others in a free and loving way. I appreciated that this has been a part of me, but it has now reached another level, a gained sense of understanding and value. I appreciate the wisdom that I have after 68 years of living and learning, to become a resource in my own right and like no other, a Quantum Life! It is this type of awareness that empowers me, opening new pathways I never knew existed.

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The journey continues, but not alone

My journey is not over yet, and I am working to make it last as long as possible, in my own beliefs. I have so much more to discover, learn, do, and create. My days are filled with each new step on this road, with all the things that find their way into my life. By being who I am now, I am inviting what I need in all of these areas, including people and the means to take all of this to new heights.

My mind is constantly creating new sparks of energy, ideas of how to create new things, how I can increase my own abilities, including helping and healing others. These are becoming my life goals; refined and developed as the scenery changes and so do I. Nothing is permanent, it is an evolving and continuous stream of consciousness that we are all immersed in a universe where fractal* and holographic theories are being explored to reveal new thinking and understanding in how everything is connected.

We are all entitled to our own beliefs, this is the latest evidence of my own changes, awareness, and understanding. Tomorrow, next week, a month from now, or in a year, I know I will not be the same person as today. I will change as I grow and evolve by maintaining and creating this view and in my belief and perception of what I am doing. Why would I stop the amazing things that have entered my life to bring about such a beautiful understanding and appreciation of it all?

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Of course, there are many things in the world that need improving and changing.

They can and will happen if we create it together.

*Featured Photo: Natural fractal patterns in the human eye, patterns that exist in all things

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I began this journey the day I opened my eyes for the very first time. I found this site at a time when I needed support more than any other point in my life. I had chosen to transition after years of internal turmoil, failing to be able understand or accept who and what I was. My life moved on at a pace that I found hard to deal with at times, but I managed. Living alone in the South West of France life was far from simple or easy then. Then, I discovered this oasis online, finding love, understanding and support unequalled to anything I have previously come across. Dare I suggest, my other family! So, why return after leaving about two years back? At the point, my life was changing dramaticaly, everything I had believed, understood and built my life around, up until that point, changed almost overnight. I am very settled in my life now living as a woman, with friends and a social life, all while being the happiest I have been. I am in the medical system here after overcoming many obstacles, now with the hope of surgery very soon to complete my transition. I have returned here in the hope that my experiences and knowledge can be of help to others in this community. When very young, I dreamed of being a girl, going to bed at night hoping I would awake as a girl. After realising that wasn't going to happen, I shut down that wish and lived a repressed existence from that day. It took a lifetime of unintentionally hurting myself and others, regretfully! Perhaps the one true regret of my life!

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