MTF crossdresser in the Binghamton, NY area. Not looking to date or “hook-up”. Looking for other cd’s in the area to chat with. Right now, the only person I have to talk with in-person about this is my totally awesome, understanding wife. I first knew I liked to wear girls clothes when I was about 4-years-old. Growing-up, I would dress-up in mom's clothes when I could. As an early teen, I got caught wearing a pair of mom's white pantyhose once by my brother. I'm still not positive if he told on me. In my mid-teens, I got confronted by my mom once with a girls scarf I'd found at school, a skirt I'd made from an old pair of cut-off denim shorts (I just LOVE the look of a tight, short skirt, stockings & heels...Mmmm...Yes, please! So F***in' SEXY!) & a bra I'd swiped from the neighbor's clothesline. I was mortified. All I could think was, "Please don't tell dad.". To the best of my knowledge, she never did. If she did, dad has never let-on that he knows. I would wear panties &/or stockings to school once in a while. I worked-up the nerve & wore a bra once while in High School (I made sure it was a day I didn't have gym), I think a couple of the girls in my class noticed me fidgeting with it. They gave me some weird looks & nothing more ever came of it. Once I got older & moved away from home, I would sneak into some of my girlfriend's lingerie when she wasn't home. This was physically difficult because she was all of about 5'-2" & around 120-pounds while I'm 6'-1" & was around 195-pounds back then (I'm about 210-pounds now). If I heard a stitch "pop", I would stop & try on something else. Luckily, she had a LOT of lingerie, she loved it, so I was quite lucky with that one. That was back in 2002. I didn't do anything further with CD-ing until a few months ago, around March-2018. That was pretty-much the extent of it until a few months ago when I revealed Elle to my wife. My wife is SO incredibly, amazingly, unequivocally supportive. Simply put...She Is THE BEST! I have a shopping-buddy, a make-up-buddy, a "girlfriend" & a confidante. She truly IS the entire package. Of course, she had questions & I answered every single one of them then waited & she promptly gave me an "Okay. As long as you're safe & you NEVER cheat on me, I'm okay with this.". I have always been jealous of how lucky women are, from being able to dress every way a man dresses as well as having all the clothing & styling options; dresses, skirts, slacks, pants, shirts, blouses, cardigans, shawls, scarves, cute sneakers, flats, everyday heels, "hooker-heels", boots (both low & high cut, low-heel & high-heel), makeup (everyday as well as going-out or party), etc. It just seems SO unfair! If men want to get dressed-up in a "traditional" manner, there's different slacks/pants, shoes (but they're basically all the same), a few different styles of shirts and that's about it. Take a moment & think about all of the options women have just when it comes to SHOES! OMG...Totally unfair! So, I've been slowly building a wardrobe (including shoes of course!) over the past couple of months (Payless & Poshmark have been a blessing. We also have the benefit of Style Encore & Label Shopper nearby). My wife let me know the other day that it looks like we may run out of room to hang things on the closet rack LOL. I've been wanting to do a closet remodel over the past several years anyway, looks like now I have a legitimate excuse to put my "handy-man/handy-woman" skills to work. My short-term goal is to be able to go out dressed-up, and to "pass". Of course, I'm not sure if I would pass or simply look like a man in drag. My wife & I have differing opinions on that one. When I post some pictures on CDH in the future, I expect impartial opinions & brutally honest feedback from as many of the ladies on here as I can get, please. Thanks, Girls! One of my fantasies would be being able to come to work as a sexy secretary (White blouse, nice skirt, thigh-high stockings, heels) & no one would question it. Where I work, I firmly believe that would be impossible. Still, it's nice to fantasize! I am straight AND I love how incredibly, wonderfully fabulous it feels to get dressed-up en femme. Now, here I am...ELLE, in all of her grandeur!