Jenni here, I am a 60 + year old closet CD in Chicago area. I have been dressing on and off since my early 20s. I’ve been married for over 35 years and my wife knows about my crossdressing, but doesn’t approve. For about 20 years I put my desires aside. Like many closet CDs, I have purged my feminine things countless times. Before joining CDH my desire to dress came roaring back. I went out and purchased panties and a bra, a dress at the thrift store and a handful of makeup. I went to a local CD/ Trans clothing store and purchased my first wig ever. Saturday was the first day in many years that I dressed up. It was thrilling, exciting and a great relief to feel the feminine me come out again after all this time! However, my dressing was in secret when my wife was visiting her mother. It’s not healthy to keep it secret. I knew that I couldn’t hide this from her and had to let her know. Later I was in our bedroom watching you tube videos on my phone on how to tell your spouse that you are a crossdresser. Perfect timing as she had already figured it out and came in and asked if I was crossdressing again. I had shaved my beard earlier in the week and she told me that was her first thought. Now, she is the most liberal, progressive and open minded person in the world, except for my crossdressing. She was hurt, afraid and disappointed with me. I was truthful with her about my return to crossdressing. She was honest, too, and doesn’t like this part about me. After a day of uncomfortable silence she told me that she really needed me to hug her tightly and tell her that everything was going to be alright and I wasn’t going to drop any other bombshells. So, here we are. Me embracing my feminine self and trying to feel good about it and my wife trying to understand me and my desires. My advice to any married crossdresser is to be open and honest about it. You can put your crossdressing aside or bury it, but it never goes away.