Greetings, I have struggled with what I now know is gender dysphoria most of my life. I first realized I was “different” at 5 when I tried on my sisters underoos and liked them better. By my early teens I was borrowing my sisters and mothers clothes regularly and was caught several times. I couldn’t understand why I would do this, get in trouble and repeat over and over again. By my college years I was buying my own clothes and going out en femme. I loved it. Down side was my femme side screwed up my relationships…ending an engagement, causing a divorce and making it impossible to find a partner who would accept me as me. So here I am an almost 50 year old spinster who is en femme as much as I can be. But I’m happy being me. I try to get out as much as I can, be it shopping sitting on the beach or hitting up a bar. I’m a wallflower and am happy people watching with a drink in my hand.