I am a man in his late fifties. I am also crossdresser, tv or tgirl, take your pick. I like presenting as a classy but sexy women, usually showing a lot of leg, although I am not necessarily very successful. For me it is all about feeling feminine and sexy. I have very little experience of make up, but hope to go for a few makeovers soon. I will post the pictures as long as I don't look horrendous. I remain in the closet to the world at large, but have recently told my wife I am a crossdresser. She already accepted me wearing nice undies and tights a couple of times a week and I do it quite openly, keeping them with my other clothes. Very recently I also wore an above the knee skirt for the evening, but no wig or makeup. It is the first time I have done this with her and she is still trying to come to terms with the idea. Crossdressing doesn't do anything for her but we have agreed I will dress when home alone. I suspect she worries it will go a lot further, if she allows me to dress fully with her. It wouldn't, having it as our secret would be enough in fact not doing so will drive me further underground and into the trans world. Perhaps she worries I am gay, however I'm sure I'm not, male bits don't do anything for me. It is more complex, Natasha is as much me as my male persona, but I am a bit effeminate, something I have suppressed most of my life, but no longer. In my ideal world I would wear panties with tights or stockings in the winter a couple of times a week under my male clothes, and I would probably dress fully as Natasha couple of times a month. I would really like to do this with my wife but I love her and don't want to hurt her, she is still taking it all in and trying to come to terms with Natasha. I don't blame her for this, she married a macho male, neither of us knew Natasha was lurking in my soul. It began 20 years ago when my wife suggested I put on her sexy undies for a bit of a giggle. We both enjoyed it, but whereas she saw it as a bit of fun and a one off, I was hooked and was soon wearing dresses, skirts, tights or stockings, blouses, heels and a wig whenever I could. I often dress when I am alone for a few hours, it is usually the first thing I do. If I am alone for longer be it away for work or my wife is away, I dress fully in the house or hotel. When I go out I wear male clothes, but underneath I'll be wearing a bra, panties and tights or stockings. I wear my own female clothes not my wife's and force myself to shop for them in person. I am determined not to lie, I am not ashamed of who I am, so although I try to avoid fessing up, if asked I say they are for me. Sales assistants have always been very kind and understanding. On one occasion a female assistant suggested some dresses to try on (including a very short black one) and I modelled it for her. She seemed to like it and said she wished her boyfriend would dress for her. I have tried to conform and have had the purges many dressers will recognise, but I am now at peace with the fact that a part of me likes to be en femme sometimes. Yes it is partly sexual, but it is more than that. I adore feeling nylon and lace on my skin and the swish of a hem mid thigh is divine. I find when I am Natasha I automatically, move, behave and think in a more feminine way. It helps me to relax. Frankly, I prefer that version of myself, I think the world would be a calmer place if more men channeled their inner female. Nonetheless I am happy with my male parts, I don't want to be a women, I just like pretending to be one sometimes. I am not looking for sexual hookups. I am only want to make some like minded girly friends so we can chat online. For me this is about escaping the role of alpha male, about being feminine, sexy, gentle and desirable. I love to chat with other girls and it would be great to hear from you. Natasha xxx