Always been conflicted about by crossdressing since my teens. I have been through the guilt and purges and the strain this can put on a relationship. I am by myself now and this seems to fill in the time and keep me from getting into other trouble. It can be cheaper than gambling and alcohol. But I love the way dressing makes me feel and the relaxation that comes with it upon me. I would really like to meet other girls and start going out to events, dinners, etc. for fun and friendship.