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Gemma Lovegood
Shy and kind closeted straight crossdresser. I started dressing very young (around 10), wearing my mother’s and sister’s things when I was alone. In my 20s I lived alone, and purchased several things of my own, including makeup. I worked for a gay man, and became a close friend of his, though I was and still am very straight. I went to several gay bars with him, and encountered many CDs, drag queens, and the full spectrum of the LGBTQ+ community. But, I could never find the courage to come out to him as a CD. I’m married for over two decades now and have never revealed my secret to my wife. We have countless gay friends (male and female), but I’ve never revealed myself to any of them. It seems strange, and is one of my biggest regrets. I’ve lived so long with this secret that it feels like I’ve passed a point of no return. Perhaps one day I’ll find the courage. I’m grateful for all of the friends and discussions I’ve had with others like me here at CDH. It truly feels therapeutic, and I’ve grown to accept these desires that I have, and to realize there are so many like me in the world. That gives me great peace.
Very feminine and stylish Gemma I am happy for you and proud you took that opportunity to be and share part of yourself to grow and to embrace the femininity of the whole experience. A job well done next time will be a little easier to step and be Gemma and I know you want to step a little further. Great job glad you did it.
Hugs April
Thanks, April!!! Often when I dress at home, I feel so rushed and worried. But being away, my demeanor really had time to settle in and just be. It was fun do normal things, like sit and eat some fruit and raw veggies for lunch, and watch TV, and even sit outside in the sun and feel the cool breeze up across my legs and in my hair. Euphoria!!!
so glad you took that first step! You look great and trust me, with each passing day and practice you will feel more confident in your appearance. In a few weeks, you fill finally feel free to be yourself!!!
Thanks Kim!!! This week I’ve been so nervous that something would prevent me from being able to get away. I tried to temper my excitement, so as not to get disappointed. So much so, that I almost decided not to do it. I’ve been so excited and planned so much, that the fear of missing out caused me to exit my pink fog. But now, Im giddy with excitement and really looking forward to my next adventure out!! -Gemma
Gemma, I am so happy for you. I too have been wrestling with the idea of appearing in public as Angela, and stories like yours are helping me gain the confidence I need to make it happen. Very inspirational. Oh, and let me add that you look fantastic.
Girl, I’ve been admiring your photos for a while now, and you should totally do it!!! It was an amazing experience. Love your style too. -Gemma
I can honestly say that if I looked your direction all I would see is a woman with lovely dress sense, very well done
Oh my gosh, thank you kindly!! I certainly felt pretty. I’ve certainly learned a lot about highlighting things I like (my legs), and downplaying things I don’t (like my Popeye forearms, LOL)! CDH is such a great community for learning and sharing. -Gemma
So happy for you Gemma, What a great experience and you look incredible dear.
Thanks, Crystal!
You look great. seeing that girl in the mirror the first time is a euphoric, life changing experience. Congratulations in stepping out the first time. That also is a life changing euphoric experience. In many ways , I think it might be the ultimate crossdresser experience.
The last time I was this complete (makeup and clothing) was almost 30 years ago). This time I added nails and jewelry. I tried different shapes and colors too, to see if I can discover the style that suits me best. My mind is certainly younger than my face, so I need to keep experimenting. I think this was my second favorite look for the weekend for sure. I’ll probably share my favorite soon, in shots that I took outside! -Gemma
Fantastic Gemma – such a major step and you look just great. Here’s to the many wonderful times ahead!
Thanks, Kris! Totally looking forward to my next opportunity. I certainly took enough photos and made enough memories to hold me over for a while, but with some trepidation, I hope it’s not too long! -Gemma
I’m glad you had a great time Gemma and look forward to seeing your photos! This first one is really a great one for many reasons! Nicely done!!
Thanks, Gabriela! I’ll be honest, and say your comment means a LOT to me. ❤️ You may not remember this, but when I first joined, I posted a FaceApp photo. As an admin, you messaged me privately and offered encouragement to show the real me. At first I was sad, because I didn’t have any photos, and was afraid. But your encouragement and this community have supported and taught me so much. I want to be as confident as you and so many other here. This was my first step, of hopefully many to come, and I’m so glad to… Read more »
Congratulations, Gemma! You look amazing!
Thanks, Emma!! It feels so nice to be seen. -Gemma
Good for you Gemma! As others have said, each future experience will be progressively easier. I started my public crossdressing less than a year ago, and a fortnight ago I spent 3 days living as a woman at a long weekend trans event here in the UK, and it was one of the best things I have ever done! I’m sure you will enjoy each and every adventure as you become bolder and more confident in public. Feel the fear and do it anyway, as the saying goes. Soon enough the fear will disappear altogether, and all that will remain… Read more »
YES! I’m so glad that I didn’t let the fear get the best of me. I have gained so much confidence and love from this community. I’m truly overwhelmed. I can’t even imagine living for three days! Halfway through yesterday, at 2pm, I realized I still had the whole rest of the day. I’ve NEVER had that much time to settle and just be. I can imagine that you must have been in CD heaven. (LOL, see what I did there?). -Gemma