Hello, I'm new, both to this site and to being true to my self. I'm a man in my early 50s and have lived the somewhat normal straight life. I married a woman, had a kid, then lost interest sexually with her, we divorced. I got married again and had another kid and go figure the same thing happened again. Then I started it all over again but this time I cut things short and told her the truth and instead of her hating me, we went shopping for some new clothes and we both went on to date different men. Neither of us found anyone so we are back together as a couple, I do love her. It is so relieving that if she sees my laundry she is understanding but, I don't think she likes the fact that I wear women's underwear everyday or that I want to wear makeup and dress as a woman sometimes, not everyday but, sometimes and I feel awkward because I still feel like I have to hide my desires. I'm here for advice, makeup tips, dressing tips and just basically to talk freely to understanding people. BTW I'm 6'3" and wear size 15 US men's shoes (ugh) it is hard to find things that fit right especially since I still feel embarrassed looking for women's clothes.