After finally coming out to my wife before she passed away she told me she knew for a while and she asked me if I would mind that she helped me and teach me to do my hair and makeup and accepted me for who I am I told her that I want to transition she told me she would help me and my transition for as long as she could before cancer took her life I've been unable to cross-dress much since my wife passed away because I can only afford to rent rooms from people and I haven't met the right person yet that will accept me being transgendered