Shades of Mona is my own journey to the beautiful world of being happy and a “Crossdresser”
My story is not unusual from many other Crossdressers. I can relate to other CDs who are very happy being a crossdresser married to an understanding wife who have no plans to go full time. What may set me apart would be my keen interest in fashion and makeup. I am also a shopaholic when it comes to women’s clothing, shoes and accessories.
I started full female dressing when I was about 24. Prior to that it was only about random clothing, bra or panty or stockings and shoes that I would wear and then return back to being the boy I was known as. I was working full time and living alone in my one bedroom apartment when I first attempted a full female makeover. I spent a good amount of my paycheck to buy bras, panties, skirts, tops, pantyhose and sandals. I also bought basic makeup items like foundation and lipstick as well.
I can say that I looked myself in the mirror and I was so thrilled to see a new person in front of me who reflected someone I would love to be. This was the 90’s era when social networking was limited to some chat forums and digital cameras were yet to be invented. I did have a PC and I used to chat on Yahoo using my webcam. That was my first ever female exposure to outside world. A new person was born and it will hence be known as “Monika” or “Mona” for short…
Mona gradually grew from there to have long hair, more clothes to wear, better fitting shoes and lingerie and better makeup. With every new attempt I was encouraged to keep going. Then came the Internet explosion and YouTube and digital cameras and off course more money to support my passion. I would download and read loads of fashion articles, makeup tutorials, interacted with more TGs around the world to get better at being Mona. All these years Mona stayed restricted to one bedroom suite and the virtual world called the Internet. Mona would wake up from a long day sleeping every evening and go to bed wearing soft silky nighties and pajamas.
After 4 years, I fell in love with a beautiful woman and Mona took a back seat as I did not see how Mona would fit among us. There was simply no room for a 3rd person in our relationship. So Mona got sacrificed and all things belonging to Mona were securely disposed off wiping her out of the existence. Time went on and one thing that remained lingering was I wanted to see my wife wearing those beautiful clothes, lingerie and makeup and look how I liked Mona to look like. A sexy elegant beautiful woman who is full of feminist and style. It was very challenging and unfair to expect her to change to be Mona and then the big move came and we moved to US. US open free culture, shopping opportunities, frankness, self service culture allowed me to peek more freely at women’s things without being frowned upon or being questioned. I would pick up an article of clothing or two and ask my wife to wear it for me. But it never came close to the experience of being Mona.
Next on… “Few Shades Less Prettier..”
Great pic Monika!!
Thanks Rachel. You look lovely yourself.
Great article and photos
You look great Mona you are a very sexy lady
Thanks Jamie.
Wonderful story Mona!
We have a lot in common Mona when it comes to the age we started, and the things you like to wear. Having your own place is a big enabler to CD’ing.
Steph
I would rather say that the only factor that helped me explore my feminine side was having my own place and privacy.
Good to meet you Steph.
Yes I totaly agree with you it happens with most of the crossdresser They posses all the ward robe with them but place a nd time become the fector which comes in the way of crossdressing Still most of the families have not yet come up to the msrk of under standing feeling of cds and cds feel uncomfertable
I sometimes feel that the restrictions posed on me by my wife are fair… as I tend to get a bit reckless… by reckless I mean… being carried away. At times, I have stepped out of my private space wearing only lingerie and tempted to take pics… at times, I have gone over board on spending on clothes and shoes and later I have regretted all these stupid things as no woman I know does that…
At times, we as Crossdressers are trying to overdo woman and it can be dangerous or may compromise our situation.
Well-done in sharing your experience with us How often does Monna get out in the world when you feel like it or at your wife’s request oh you lucky thing having a wife who supports you there are many girls out there being lonely with wives that are not comfortable with their partners dressing they do not understand that you still love them just the same the only change is in the wrapping
I suppose that I am lucky in some ways as I dress when I want to and go out shopping etc whilst dressed
Keep on writing Drew
Here, I am talking about the late 90’s in India… traditional societies with a huge discrimination against the TG/TS and being a man would mean doing what men do… fancy’ing anything like CDing would be considered as being “Gay" or “Trans" and the society is pretty cruel to such people.
More in next article.
Thanks Girls for all the compliments.. Will post more. 🙂
Nice story Mona. We have lot in common. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us
As I said in the beginning… I relate to so many other CDs I have met online… we are start more or less the same way but diverge as we go on… some take on transition and transformation more seriously than others while some back off… all is based on certain choices that we make and the path we chose…
There is nothing like right or wrong.. but the individual choice and we all respect it.
I’VE been CDing practically all my life , in the closet. My wife of many years, recently found out. She was do hurt. She said that I lied all these years. I told her I didn’t lie, I just didn’t tell her. Now I dress up at home. It feels totally awesome.
so wonderful to dress up and see your self as a different person and grow with your fem side. having your wife know of your desire to dress up is so overly welcome too. my wife knows of my fem side but wishes not to see me or help me with make up or even chat with me like 2 females. see what a different person i ma as a female. yes i have just like you web cam, internet, then chat sites, tg groups to join. i did go to one and all dressed up at night drove to… Read more »
I see my wife’s perspective when I am dressed… she is still looking for that man she knows in me.. she cannot see the Mona as I see myself in the mirror. She tries to find out the flaws that would prove her that I am still me… not the girl she is seeing in front of her. She tells me that the dress is looking good or the make is nice… or if there is anything wrong with my heels/get up… but she still wants to talk to me as her husband not a female friend. She finds it… Read more »
Monika Sweet,
you look fabulous. love your story and i started just like you did.
Thanks Lucinda… love to hear that.. hope you are enjoying the Crossdressing and being the beautiful gurl you are.