I was 14 or 15 when I first tried on some of my sister's bras and panties, and have gone through various phases of cross dressing in private and suppressing my desires for years at a time. Now, I'm in my 40's and happily married. A few months ago, I decided to order a bra and some panties online that I could dress up in while my wife was out of town. I've since bought several bras and panties, as well as some women's clothing. As far as I know, my wife doesn't know anything about my cross dressing. It's still my secret. I don't think I'm interested in transitioning. I still consider myself a straight male, and am attracted to both cis women and trans women. I just like being in touch with my feminine side and dressing up as a girl sometimes.