I had written a bio when I first joined CDH, then I changed it, then I removed it. So here I go again. This is a very rough road to be traveling on when you feel alone for the ride. My feelings are in constant change, I try to embrace my cross dressing and accept it for being a part of who I am, but being surrounded by a sometimes hostile negativity, makes it hard to express and impossible to explain why I feel the need to dress this way. I’m not transgender, I just enjoy the times where I can dress up and present an expression of something, I feel is better. I have dressed up as far back as I can remember but only came out to my wife a couple of years ago. in spite of her knowing, and hating it, we have a good marriage built on decades of love and trust. I keep hoping for a trace of understanding, but I lose hope of that every time I get reminded I’m not the man she married.