“The world seems a bigger place when you wear a skirt….”
“That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind” quoted Neil Armstrong when stepping foot onto the moon.
Although not anywhere near the scientific or cultural impact, for me stepping out as Samantha at night was something of a big deal.
In this article, I want to share my experience with everyone and maybe inspire someone else to make that step.
Before I get into details, a little bit about myself. I have been crossdressing for over 30 years; however, Samantha has come into her own as well as expanded her wardrobe during the last 3 years.
I do not want to go beyond the alter ego and have no plans to transition. Just like the pioneers of space, I want to keeping pushing the boundaries of my own limitations and have these wonderful and ordinary experiences as Samantha.
Whenever I hear the phrase “girls’ night out” at work, Samantha has always seen an opportunity to be a part of the fun but never followed through on it, until two weeks ago that is. Let me explain….
When a colleague was announcing she was leaving and having drinks at a local pub, I decided to chicken out no more. This would be the moment Samantha would come out of the training simulations. Before I describe the events of the night, a bit of background…
I work for a very accepting and understanding company. This means I can be in the office, working, dressed as Samantha. It’s not every day but every now and then. To be honest, I love the opportunity to put on something smart & professional then get on with the day.
This particular day at work, I was dressed as Samantha, as per picture above. As soon as 5:30 came around, following a little touch up to my makeup, a quick spray of Britney and a tug of the tights, it was time to make that giant leap out the door and into the pub on a Friday night, of all nights, Yikes!!
When I say giant leap, it was more of a pub across the road, although for me and my overthinking brain, it may as well have been on the moon.
Determined, with a deep breath and handbag over the shoulder, it was out the office and into the pub. Walking in, the pub wasn’t that busy plus the girls were already there, so I pulled up a chair and sat down.
Task number 1, order a drink. If nothing else tonight, I was determined to do this. Walking confidently up to the bar I ordered a gin & tonic which seemed appropriate. That went well, score one success for the Samantha!
Sitting down, cross legged, as one of the girls and just chatting even for a few hours was so much fun, there was not an issue at all. I did make eye contact with a woman across a table, however this was just fleeting and she, like the rest of the ever-increasing number of patrons got back to starting their weekends.
As the pub got busier, I did start to retreat into myself a little and noticed myself clutching my handbag ever tighter on my lap, self-defense mechanism perhaps? Thankfully there was no bother from anyone all night. Come 9pm, it was sadly time to leave and bid farewell to my fellow girls. Stepping back out into the cold air felt like the end of a brief yet great experience, almost akin to landing on the moon, I suppose.
Perhaps the world doesn’t feel bigger when you wear a skirt after all.
I am not sure when Samantha will step out again but with freshly painted nails, touched up makeup and a with a firm grasp on the handbag, I will be ready and for another adventure.
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Does this positive experience I’ve had in my recent past inspire some of you CDH girls to make that giant leap of taking your femme self out in public for the first time?
What is your specific issue which may be keeping you individually from making your giant leap out in public as your femme self?
Would you feel more comfortable going out in public as a lady your very first time in a girl group setting such as the one described above in my article? Or would prefer flying solo on your first time out as the femme version of yourself?
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Thank you so very much for taking the time to read my article.
Please feel free to answer any one or more of the questions I’ve posed to you above! I look forward to reading your replies!
Hugs XOXO
Sincerely, Samantha
Hi Samantha,
I really enjoyed reading your article. It gives me hope that one day I will be able to the same. Working with a group of girls that are accepting of you as Samantha must be simply liberating in itself. To be able to go out to the pub with them and not feel intimidated would be like walking on the moon.
Keep strong, the world is changing.
Just not fast enough for me.
Hugs
Ger
What fun. I hope I can have a girls night one of these days. You look so cute, that must have been a blast.
Great story, Sam, but in that you’re accepted at work, you have a leg up on most of us. Glad it turned out well for you.
Hey Sam I saw your post and thought that you were very brave to go to the pub after work as Samantha. First times and so exciting no matter what it is that you are doing. I was out window shopping at 6large mall one day and I decided to go into a Ruby Tuesdays and have lunch. It was my first time going to a restaurant and I.wondered if I could do it I’m happy to say that it was a good experience and I didn’t have any negative things happen. I was seated at a small table and… Read more »
Wonderful story Sam… my first outing was dinner with my wife at a restaurant 15 miles from our house. I was terrified as we walked into the place, but a waiter said, “Hi girls" as he seated us. And dinner went off without a hitch!
I’m happy for you…do it again soon, sister!
Love, Kathryn
Hi Samantha I am so glad it went so good . I love getting out dressed .I call it a mission . I feel if we can go out and be seen it helps .The more people see of use the less taboo it is. I do like looking passable but my hands and shoulders give me away. The more I go out the easier it gets I go to trans support groups dressed . Walking into a bar by your self is a big step your friends where in the bar but still just going though the door .… Read more »
Hi Samantha, Nice story and well told. I wish you many such outings in the future. You Go Girl!
Lovely and inspiring story…I will definitely see myself doing it one day.
You make me feel confident to do so. However, I would need a partner to go out with and I am not so lucky as you in this respect!
Hope you’ll have plenty of more chances to go out!
Hugs
Jen
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. You are very fortunate that you work at an accepting company like you do.
That sounds like a great experience you had with the other ladies, and I’m sure you will want to do some kind of a repeat. Going out en femme is wonderful, and rather addictive too!
Amy
What a great story, although I don’t believe the 30 years, you can’t cross dress in nappies. If I looked as good as you I would consider a outing but for now it would be more Apollo 13 than Apollo 11, tempting disaster. Great stuff Samantha. x
Hi Donna
Thank you for your message.
Yes it has been 30 years in the making, suppose everything is in the timing.
Apollo 13 was considered a successful failure, I don’t imagine an outing would end in disaster for you at all. Small steps is at that is needed.
Take care
Hugs
Samantha x x
True suppose I could have referenced Apollo 1. Thanks anyway for encouragement. xxx