I’ve been crossdressing on and off for 50 years. In the last five, I’ve been dressing quite frequently and have become aware of the effect it has had on my persona. Recently, I’ve been trying to ascertain a clearer, positive perspective on my crossdressing – the resul...
Our lives today have never been more influenced by others and outside pressures than it is now. Independent thinking has given way to repetitive reasoning as strongly (or officially) suggested by those in charge, in positions of power, or in their self-prescribed strategic stagin...
Hello to all the fantastic ladies that live inside this beautiful platform. I ask for your patience and understanding as I ramble on a bit about a topic that has been on my mind. I have been grappling with my feelings about meeting and possibly even dating men. The more I have be...
Are you willing to feeel goood? In the past, I have used being authentic as an excuse for feeling dark n twisty. I use the word authentic because there are so many labels used to describe and categorize and compartmentalize who we are or not. If we are to choose a label for anyth...
Dabbing my toes in the water of femininity. Is this what I’m really doing or am I a creature of unknown origins? A collection of thoughts and actions that show neither a true path nor a divergence from safety and the familiar. Enough with the existentialism. Just what the heck ...
Shifting sands If we take a moment to look back at our past, we can see a shift in what can be perceived as a movement of some nature. That which has propelled us through numerous events and experiences, life’s lessons; call it what you will. In understanding how things have ch...
Arousal is something that hasn’t been a part of my life for a number of years. However, I find myself once again, about to write things about what has been a very personal and intimate part of my life. As in my earlier article, A Scorpio in an exclusion zone, my feelings and u...
Our childhood is nothing less than amazing! We may not have realised what we have been doing since. You may scoff at the idea, but it is true, we may have simply lost the ability to believe and understand it. Everyone deserves to know and understand It doesn’t require a ...
They say with age comes wisdom. It also brings a confluence of memories and wishes. For those of us who see the world as being more than male and female it typically brings more heartache and unanswered questions. I know that I’m part of the new 40 having just turned 60, but as...
What we see through our eyes is like watching a silent movie, images received as frequencies of light that allow us to perceive colour, shape, size and distance. We add a soundtrack to that movie of life with the immense range of sounds that we hear. Detecting frequencies by the ...
“Hooked on a Feeling.” I can’t stop this feelin’ Deep inside of me Girl, you just don’t realize What you do to me I got it bad for you, girl But I don’t need a cure I’ll just stay addicted And hope I can endure Saweetie “Fast (Motion)” Off...
Here is a reprise of an essay I wrote many years ago. First a credit. It all started with a letter I had at that time from a blogger than going by the penname “Jenny Mahoney.” (A little imagination will enable any among us who keep up with the important opinion leaders in o...
I know from personal experience that this happens on many different levels and reasons, in all forms of creativity. So what is creativity and why does this occur, especially when carried out with one other person or many? By definition The word creativity is a noun that is descri...
I have changed my name to Janus! Janus is the Roman god of endings, transitions, and beginnings. This god is often pictured with two faces: either male/male or male/female. I thought it appropriate for my circumstance. If you read my first article “Beginnings” you are...
I want to thank you for your time. It’s tough figuring out where to start. Here’s a little about me. From a young age, I’ve always dressed in hiding, probably the same as a lot of us have done. When I got caught by my family they made it clear that what I was doing was wron...
I feel trapped. I do not know how to tell my girlfriend that I don’t want to be with her anymore. I so badly do not want to hurt her, but the truth will make her feel very sad. Telling the truth will destroy someone I care about. We’ll be together 2 years. We live tog...
It occurred to me this week, that so few people can really understand my reasons for choosing to live the way I do! Even more so, on the subject of surgery (SRS). The latter being quite a dramatic and extreme choice that encouraged some to tell me that, it will not change who I a...
Transcendence to the self What has flying got to do with self-acceptance? And does acceptance come in two parts? You might think it very strange to pose these two questions? If you can manage to read through and get to the end, I’ll try my best to answer these questions fro...
It wasn’t until I was into my 30 something stage of life that this paradox became an understanding of a truth for me. You see, most of my life to this point had been a steep downward helix of codependent behaviors and drama; I so desperately wanted to be loved and treated with ...
The untold story of Lily-Rose Hi, all lovely ladies at Crossdresser Heaven. I’ve only been a member for a short time. I’ve been learning so much about myself. I’ve never considered myself being transgender, until now, even though I’ve been transgender all my life. Now I...
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