When I set out to write this article, I first started off with my earliest recollections of crossdressing, but it soon developed into a long story about my crossdressing life. As this was my first article, I asked my dear friend Andrea to take a look. She came back with many suggestions on how I could make my good article into a great one. So rather than share my not very interesting CD life story I’ve decided to focus on one little part; the story of how joining Crossdresser Heaven last year not only changed who I am, but gave Stephanie life.
I’ve been dressing on and off for over 40 years; I’m 56, but instead of the urges to dress diminishing, they’ve actually increased over the last few years. What else has changed is in how I dress. I use to be satisfied by grabbing a couple of hours, but now when I dress, I need a whole day. Last March, following such a day, which had gone quite well, I did a bit of surfing and came across the Crossdresser Heaven website. I read many of the fascinating articles and looked at some of the lovely pictures. It got me thinking that I could join some day. Over the next few months, CDH became my favourite site. I devoured the stories and dipped my toes into many of the forums. What I quickly realised was that this site was indeed a heaven; I could sense the warmth and kindness permeating throughout the site. There were so many girls seeking advice and even more offering their support, solutions, and encouragement. I knew instinctively that CDH was going to be my new home, a place where I could safely escape to, and a place where I could be my other self.
But who was I? In all these years of dressing, I hadn’t thought of myself as anything other than a guy who enjoyed dressing as a woman now and then, but since finding CDH, I knew deep down that this wasn’t the case. There was something else, someone else inside of me who wanted desperately to be set free. I decided to join CDH; I went to the registration page and hit my first challenge! I needed to provide a name and email address; I didn’t have either! It took me three days to decide on my femme name. I thought it would be simple, but soon realised that the name needed to fit my feminine personality. It had to match who I was both on the outside and inside. I decided on Stephanie; just saying the name sent goosebumps all over me. That’s how I knew it was defiantly the right choice. Now that I had my name, I quickly set up Stephanie’s new email account, and within minutes, I was a registered member with CDH. What I hadn’t bargained for was the sudden realisation that something akin to an internal earthquake had just happened. My feminine self had taken on a true identity; she was real, she was living and breathing, she had a personality, she had a name, and she was me! She is Stephanie.
I can’t stress enough that joining Crossdresser Heaven has changed my (our) lives; it has literally given me a new lease of life. I really can’t put into words the huge impact joining CDH has had on us. Up to this point, no one else has any idea that I crossdress and identify as Stephanie. I’m able to chat to other girls, share my thoughts and dreams, my worries or concerns, I can talk about everything and anything, and I can have a laugh or even cry.
THANK YOU Crossdresser Heaven for helping bring Stephanie out and into this world and also for helping me realise who I truly am. The first steps for Stephanie have been fantastic. I’m looking forward to taking further, bigger steps.
A big thank you to all my new friends, especially Andrea for all her kind help and support.
Love and hugs,
Stephanie xx
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Thank you for this great article Stephanie. I am so very sorry to hear about your horrible 2018, but you’ve landed in a great place, full of love and support. I wish you all the very best in 2019.
Big hugs of love and friendship, Mona
Hi Mona
thank you for your kind words and hugs, 2018 was not good but I’m determined to make 2019 a fab year especially for Stephanie : )
when you say “Landed" I must admit me feet haven’t touched the ground since joining CDH.
Thank you for reading my article and for your wishes for 2019.
love Stephanie xx
What a lovely article, it was like you were talking about me. Thank you …
Love and hugs
Elaine
Hi Elaine
Many thanks for finding the time to read my article and for your comments.
Kindest Regards
Stephanie xx
Wow – does that sound similar to my own experience! April had no name until less than 3 years ago when she finally came to life. At the age of 58 no less. And my crossdressing over the years has also progressed to where putting on a few articles of clothing for an hour or two is really not enough. I need a whole day as April (at minimum). I am so glad you found our site Stephanie. I know for me when I happened upon this site less than three years ago I was also looking for some love… Read more »
Hi April
Thank you for your lovely comments and of course for reading my article.
Since joining CDH Stephanie has become so much more of a real person, although she hasn’t managed to get Out yet she is steadily building the confidence to do so. CDH has been a real revelation in my life and I’m overwhelmed with the love and support that I find here.
Love Stephanie xx
Stephanie,
I went through a similar self acknowledgment when choosing my name. Thank you for providing a perfect description of that special moment when you let yourself become who you are!
Hi Miranda
I’m so pleased you found my article interesting and could relate to the importance of truly discovering your real identity.
Kindest & Hugs
Stephanie xx
Thank-you Stephanie
Lisa
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Hi Lisa
Just a quickie to say thanks for finding the time to read my article
Kindest
Stephanie xx
Hi Stephanie,loved the article and i hope this is the start of a very special journey. Py. x
Hi PY
Many thanks for taking the time to read my article, since joining CDH I definatly feel that I have started a new chapter with Stephanie, I’m also blown away by the kind words of support, advice and lovely comments about my article.
Thank you again and take care.
Love Stephanie x
Hi Stephanie. Your story is my story. I have been a member of CDH for only a little over 2 and a half months, but I am a changed person. Indeed, Melissa is a real person with her own personality, and I love being Melissa and talking and being open with my lady friends here. Who would have thought 3 months ago that I would be openly sharing pictures and messages to this community. Who would have thought that I would have been brave enough to come out as Melissa to the quirky lady at SteinMart that is now my… Read more »
Hi Melissa Thank you so much for finding the time to read my article, I can’t believe how many girls have read and liked what I wrote it’s so empowering. When I read other articles on CDH I find so many that tell stories very similar to mine, I think it that that make CDH really feel like a home from home. Whenever I’m chatting or sending messages (like this one) even when I’m in drab its Stephanie who’s doing it not the other me, before I joined CDH I only felt Stephanie when I was dressed but now she… Read more »
Thanks for sharing 🙂 Looooovvvvvveeeeeee the navy blue lace dress btw. 🙂 😮 I have been meaning to buy something very similar for a while now.
Hi Danielle
so Lovely to receive your comments, I’m guessing you are also a lover of everything lace? It’s so incredibly femme.
Love Stephanie xx
I love your blue dress, where did you get it?
Hi Christine
Thanks you for commenting, it’s also one of my favourites, I think (sorry memory like a sieve) I got it from Amazon UK. I’ll take a look in a sec and send you the details if I find them.
Stephanie x
Thank you Stephanie for adding yet another entry from you that helps, along with all the other contributing ladies, make this site a wonderous place where we can all feel safe spending time and releasing our thoughts and feelings. May 2019 be a brighter year for personal life and a higher plateau reached in your journey.
Olivia
Hi Olivia
Thank you so much for finding the time to read my article and also your lovley kind words, 2019 hasn’t unfortunately got off well due to a threat of redundancy at work but I’m trying to stay positive and having friends like yourself and the words of support really mean so much to me.
Please take care.
Love Stephanie xx
The possibility of losing a job is always a time filled with fear and uncertainty, like you didn’t already have that going on with this femme lifestyle we lead lol. Many times we find that the end of our current job is but another opportunity of growth working somewhere else. I’ve had it happen in my life more than once and do hope the best for you as well.
Hugs
Olivia