… when you look down at your freshly painted toes and feel that rush. OMG!
I’m new, quite new in fact, but the desires have spanned decades. Like so many on here whose own stories are very compelling. They come from hard backgrounds, tough times and a locked closet of ten bolts, locks and rivets so that no one can pry that door open. Not all of our paths to this point are the same, but a lot of us have emerged from similar backgrounds.
So when there’s that moment when we can look down at our toes or feel the fabric grace upon our skin we can rejoice, even if just for a few minutes. Because ultimately, hopefully, some day we can let our inner girl out from the shell we’ve had within us.
No matter what way we choose to create that opening of exploration and feeling, it’s with hope that we all, all of us, can some day experience that at a time that best suits us. Not everyone wants 24/7 but a lot do. Not everyone has the same buttons to press and that’s okay too. The great thing about a place like CDH is that we all get it. We may not be the same, or have the same desires and wants, but we get it at the most basic level. The incredible love and support here is beyond words: the best experience I could’ve asked for.
The road may be very hard and difficult. The opportunities may be limited or seemingly non-existent but I will always know that I have a home here of girls that understand and get it. That’s a huge blessing when there are days I wake wondering exactly how I got here and where do I go now that I am here. These steps are tough but they’re good solid steps. However, as I take those steps I see my painted toes and I know this is where I was meant to be.
“You can’t always get what you want, you can’t always get what you want, but if you try real hard, you just might get what you need “Mick Jagger of the Rolling Stones."
Couldn’t agree more @Kim Newton 🙂
Hello, If only i had the courage to do something nice. A bit here a bit since,that’s all.
You’r all so incredibly nice,but i believe my self-esteem is not good.
Sorry,i do not speak english good.
Be hugged.
Astrid
@Astrid – you’re absolutely fine hon. Just give it the time it needs to. All things happen when they’re supposed to – and that’s how it works.
Hello dear Blue Bell ,
Love thanks for the kind words. It makes a bit of courages.
I am married,i know the real problem i myself. Astrid
I just recently started getting my nails done at a salon it’s pretty awesome but I always seemto feel out of place there as a male but my toes are red right now and I like it a lot. I wish it was acceptable for guys in general as well as girls cause even in guy mode it’s awesome 🙂
@Jennifer – I can’t wait to do a salon some time! My partner states that guys go in there all the time for mani-pedi treatments, but you’re right – I wish it was more acceptable for guys to go in and come out with your red toes! Alas, social change just seems stuck sometimes.
What a fantastic article. I love looking at my painted red toes and I can really relate to this article. Thank you so much Blue Belle.
Christy.
Aw! Thank you so much!! I can totally relate to loving to look at our painted beauties (as my red fingers dance across the keyboard …) Yay! 🙂
my toes are always done, light pink in summers and reds to purples in winter. While wearing sandals in summer with the pink I have never had a comment. My legs have no hair, lasered off, again, never had a comment. My fingers are always done in a natural colour. My wife although not supportive is becoming more accepting.
That’s awesome @dani! I’m glad that you’re able to step out and into the open while having some acceptance. It makes a huge difference I’m happy for you! I look forward to keeping my toes and fingers done as often as I’m able. I’m also going the hairless route over time – so I’m glad to hear of your experience and glad things have gone well there.
This is a wonderful article. I don’t choose to be 24/7 CHD partly because I can’t and it would rise complications. This is fine with me. I am not looking to make any gender statement I just want to be happy. So i am glad I can wear anything and no longer feel bad about it.
Thank you @Nikki Wensday! The great thing is that there’s no right or wrong way – just the right way that works best for you. I will say that I don’t dress to make a gender statement – because I’m just dressing for me. Whatever that encompasses is where I feel like I want to me. I consider myself incredibly fortunate and lucky as most girls here have a really tough time being able to bring themselves out. I’m very happy that you’re able to wear anything you want without feeling bad! It’s a great feeling isn’t it?!?
I use to be so bad when i was young. I started early around 13 or 14. By sneaking and wearing feminine cloths. I felt weird and horrified but it felt good at the time. But fought to stop it and i did for a while. these past several years i have learned to embrace and i know i am not weird or abnormal i am just me and happy about it. No one knows i do this but for me i dont do it for others to know. I do it for me and i am very content to… Read more »
I’ve been going to a nail salon for pedicures for a long time but yesterday while I was sitting there the person giving me the pedicure asked me if I wanted her to put clear on my toes. I thought Why not and told her yes please do. She didn’t hesitate and put a nice clear coat of polish on my toes and then a pair of flip flops so that I could walk to the counter that has floor fans so that they could dry. What a enjoyable experience it was and now I’m going to have my toes… Read more »
@Janine That’s amazing! I’m going to that next time too! Not sure I’m as brave as you to wear flip flops – but that’s a brilliant idea to ensure that they dry. Thanks!
Every time i go past my local nail salon, the girls try to drag me in when they notice my nails. And yes i put a clear on my toenails too. and on my fingernails……not brave enough to wear colour there. Just a thought….bronwyn
I especially like what you said about there not being a right way or a wrong way, I agree wholeheartedly with that. There are many who seem to get caught up and hung up when we develop that mind set, that I’m not doing it like she is or she is and how can I. As individuals we develop our wn persona and in doing so create the woman that we choose to unleash. Oh and I love the concept of red “happy feet", awesome. Great article.
@Jackie Yay for happy feet!! I appreciate the “no right way or wrong way" comment you made. It’s totally true though because we get stuck in so many labels and twuisms – that we think there’s only one way to do things. It’s totally not that way and in fact, it’s almost better to have our own paths because we learn so much more and be better because of our differences. Thanks for the great comment and reminder for us all to be unique!!
Alas, I seem to have lost the big toenail on my right foot for good. Too much unattended athletes foot in my youth. Which is why I glue on fake toenails. They look OK, but I really miss my mani-pedis. It’s the little things like painted nails that give us a little bliss.
April
@April (Pacific Princess) – So sorry to hear about your situation. At least you found an alternative that works – but yeah, I can see how you still miss out on the mani-pedi experience. I haven’t had one done to me yet – but I look forward to that day soon! Be well April 🙂
I have a great idea . I plan on using one way glass on my windows. I will be able to see ot but the people who are outside cannot see in. Using dark tint on car windows could be fun too.
Love the idea 🙂