When I began writing this, I wasn’t even sure how long I had been coming into the public chat room. It felt like only a couple of weeks, but on checking I found out that it had actually been since April, 2016. I only know that when I’m there, I feel at home. It’ as if I’m surrounded by Family. A group of people that I’ve never actually met, but have come to love. If I’m a little depressed, these girls are sure to cheer me up. If I’m getting too serious about life, they straighten me out, and If anyone needs help, I get to contribute. Like sisters, we all open our hearts to one another, sometimes, tease each other, but always the love is underlying everything. I find that it’s often easier to talk to the others in the chat room than it is to talk to physical family members. My Son and his wife are wonderful, but they don’t hug me every time I see them. You all do. You always have time to listen to how my day is going and always offer kind words if it’s not that great.

The people here come from all over the world. Many different occupations. Many different lifestyles, and aged from 18 to 85. But there is a common denominator; We are part of a bigger community. Kindred souls, if you will. Cross dressers, Transgender, Transsexual, Bi, Straight, and Gay, we belong to this wonderful family. We have our “Evil Uncle Ernie”, occasionally, you know, the ones who come as Guests, looking for more than support, but for the most part the people coming into the chat room are looking for support and friendship. We have our crazy Aunties, our wicked Step Sisters, our Gentle Grannies and our Little Sisters, whom we watch over and try to protect. We have our Sorrows, our Triumphs, our Adventures, our Dreams, and our Failures and wee share all of these things with each other. That is probably the best thing about the chat room. In sharing our lives, we enrich ourselves and each other. In this we learn that we are no longer alone, but that we are part of something bigger and better.

We have each other, and we have the Ambassadors, who have to keep us in line on occasion, and who I would not, could not, do without. If I ever have a question about what is proper, I know I can ask them and they will find an answer for me, if they don’t know already.

Unleash Your Inner Woman

The chat room offers guidance, support, and love. It gives us a chance to express ourselves in a way that is not available on the outside. We hear about great places to shop and neat little tricks we can use to improve our makeup. It is a place we can bounce ideas off other people with similar interests, without being afraid of being embarrassed. After all, this family is here for us, even when our physical families aren’t.

I can’t imagine that I would have come as far as I have without the chat room. It has let me grow in ways I would not have without it. Or, without you, who have come to mean more to me than you can possibly imagine. You are my Family and I would not give you up for all the gold in the world, because you are mine. And, I am yours. Now and for always. If I have learned anything here, it is that I am not alone. And I am loved.
I love you. And now I love myself. Thanks to you.

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I live in New Jersey. I was about 13 years old, when I first found a liking for girl’s things. I found a box of slips and petticoats up in the attic and brought it down to my bedroom and hid the box under my bed. I would often enjoy wearing them in my room. One day, my Mom found the box. I made up some crazy story about using them to make a weather balloon. My parents had divorced when I was eight, but my Mom called my Father, and I heard them talking. The resulting meeting was so traumatic for me, I buried the memories of it for the next 30 or so years. The next time I thought about it was when I was in my forties. My second wife and I were watching Jerry Springer, who had several Cross Dressers on the show. Without even thinking about it, I asked her, “Would you mind if I tried that?” She smiled at me and said, ” No.” Not long after, she bought me my first pair of heels. Until she passed away in 2002 I dressed and often went out. My third wife told me that she didn’t want me to do it any more and made me promise I wouldn’t. She passed in January 2016, and now I am going to return to this thing I love. I always went by the name Paige Turner when dressed, because I love to read. Now I just need to restock the makeup, and clothes, and shoes. I have since Half filled the closet, gotten a few wigs, several pairs of heels, and My Son and His Wife gave me a really nice makeup kit for Christmas. Now I live with my first wife, Wendy, again. She not only knows about Paige she critiques my outfits. She has done a lot to encourage me and gave me a lot of jewellery and wigs. She also helped me come out to my two Sons. (I’d already come out to all my sisters) Now, I have started hormone replacement therapy on Nov. 25, 2018. I can't wait to see cleavage.

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Terri
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Paige, I started going out in 1978. I remember meeting my first CD sister like it was yesterday. We started talking and immediately I knew that I was not alone. It was such a wonderful feeling. Over the years I have met such interesting people. My wife of 45yrs wants nothing to do with my femme side, but I have accepted that.

colleen
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hello all

Audrey
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Audrey

Hi all, could I develop breasts if I wear a bra iam a male

Sunseearry
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Sunseearry

Absolutely not unless you start to use estrogen (female hormones)

stephanie
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stephanie

i wear a selection of bras every day and I have real breast forms to put inside them. They make me feel like the real me! You cannot grow breasts just by wearing a bra. The previous writer is correct. Look around for bras that have preformed cups.Some bras do not need to have breast forms either because of the way that they are made. Trust in yourself give it a go.Do not get hung up on minor details.Just be yourself.Love the real you..Stephanie

Claire
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Claire

Hi anyone for me love claire

Seanarnez
Lady

how r u

addrianna escobedo
Lady

By reading all this stories makes me feel the girl inside,since I was five I like my moms nylons and dresses and when I was seven I got caught wearing my friend’s sister petticoat my parents came unexpectedly and that open to my parents an issue concerning my behavior since then I dress when I am alone making sure nobody will find about it ,when I got married I thought that would go away,but I start having the urge my wife caught me and doesn’t approved she says only when she is going out (two / three hours) which gives… Read more »

Franny
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Franny

Stay beautiful girl, keep on being ur beautiful self, with all my luv n affection n sweet hugs n kisses, all my luv Franny

Ramona
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Ramona

I never felt so alive as when I dressed with heels, nylons and miniskirt to go in public in the day time for all to see.

Rae
Lady

I’m a newbie and now have the freedom to express myself due to the end a long relationship. I am working on my wardrobe and so far, it looks like I am size 12 jeans, 9 panties & size 14 in dresses. There are many other challenges in my life today but hope to gain gender fluid expression with CDH.

Ryan gilliard
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Ryan gilliard

hi wanted sombody thsts willing to invest in me to become a tgirl performing model iam registered with grooby althow iam not yet under development i am looking for backing on my orders and wear hormones etc body suits masks is a must starting out on my develpment . i have a debue unscedaled so i want to loose my verginith on set so iam seeking biracial trans to possibly do video shoot with me im verry seriouse and ready for supportive partnership vacation cruzes ans trans resort escapes iam avalable to acompany you i just dont have the financial… Read more »

Veronica
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Veronica

Hi to everyone who will read this and i too agree with what the others have said, just be yourself and let the love that you have for the lingerie items shine.

Millie Balunis
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Thank you Veronica

Veronica
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Veronica

Hello all i know that what im about to ask for is asking alot but i have no where else that i can turn. I am in dire need of a few items that maybe some of you don’t need or want anymore. The first item is breastforms im willing to take all types but would really love some silicone ones. 2nd item is bras and swimsuits. 3rd item is either a gaff or a vpanty because i truly want to look and feel like the woman that i am. I don’t know if any of you have a shemale… Read more »

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