As I walk about the house fully dressed as JoJo, I find it not so easy to do normal things while wearing high heels. I ask myself why don’t, I just take them off and wear flats to make life easier, but I cannot come up with an answer and can’t bring myself to take them off.
This got me wondering, as I recently told a couple of close family members about JoJo, I wondered how I would answer if they asked me why I want to wear female clothing. The only answer I can think of is that it is not a case of wanting to but more a need to dress, as something in my psychological makeup gets me depressed whenever I have to go for long periods as my totally male persona.
I ask myself if I want to transition full time and while I am dressed the answer is always yes, however, when I am in male mode carrying out male dominated tasks (I wouldn’t dream of concreting while wearing a nice dress LOL) the answer is always different. Am I unusual in this respect or do you girls question yourselves in this way too?
I cannot be sure when the need to dress started in my life although one of my early memories was when I was about 9 years old, 2 friends and I (the friends were twin brother and sister the same age as me) found the door to an old unused church hall was not locked so being adventurous we went inside. We found many things of interest but the thing I remember most was some pleated white gym skirts that we put on and were running around the streets wearing them. Of course, at that age I had no idea about cross dressing. My next memory was just before puberty I found myself fascinated by my older sister’s underwear drawer where she had many pairs of tights. I succumbed to temptation and tried a pair on, whoa! This felt so good I kept on adding pairs until they were so tight I could hardly move or breath. I don’t know if she ever knew about my regular foraging of her tights, but I have loved the feel of wearing them ever since. Luckily, as life moved on and I got married, my wife and I would play games which resulted in me trying on her panties and stockings, and from there Jojo developed fully and is a big part of our married happiness.
I count myself lucky to have such a loving supportive wife and we often buy Jojo clothes together, which makes life easier in the shops, which brings me back to wearing high heels around the house so often and not having the will to remove them to do mundane tasks.
Do you girls have the same reluctance to remove your female garb? Do you have a different personality when you are dressed? Does the world seem to be a nicer place when you are en femme?
All I know is that I will never stop being Jojo and even when my time on this rock is over, I want to be put to rest as my female self.
Love to you all. xx Jojo
PS that is part of my wife’s leg at the bottom of the pic.