When I logged in this morning I was a little shocked to see that it has been more than a year since I last spoke with you. I must admit that I’ve missed sharing my journey, I’ve missed hearing about your triumphs, helping you through your occasional struggles, but most of all missed the community that we share here online.
We work in different jobs, live in different places and may even speak different languages, but one thing bonds us together. We share a longing to understand and express who we are – to let our light shine that has been hiding under drab rags for too long. No matter where you are on your journey, you are welcome here. This is a safe place to learn, ask questions and discover your true self.
Dreams can come true!
It seems like forever ago that I transitioned, yet just a moment ago when that would have seemed impossible. My deepest sorrow and hardest struggle is over, what was once my wildest dream is now an ordinary every day. I live, and work, and love as who I am all the time. As a woman. Through the twists and turns of life I can now count but a few people I still keep in contact with who knew anything else.
For many of you reading I know that living as a woman sounds like the most amazing, wonderful, exciting and joyous thing you can imagine – it was for me for many years. Yet when dreams come true I found that I went to bed and woke up the next day just the same.
Life gives you new dreams
Now my life is normal in most respects – I have a job I occasionally grumble about, I worry that I’m getting fat then eat that slice of cheesecake anyway, I make mistakes, get upset and keep trying to keep going. The only difference is I no longer worry about my gender. It doesn’t really cross my mind, except on those occasional moments when I pine for the gift of motherhood. Even in that pining I can’t help but realize how blessed I still am.
Whether your most wonderful dream has come true, or you’re still wishing on a star I’m here to hold your hand and let you know that it is possible. Have you never been out en femme before? That is a huge step, and a dream for many, but you can make it happen! Are you afraid of sharing your true self with loved ones? Acceptance and love from them may be a dream still in your future.
What do you dream about? What is that step on your transgender journey that you’ve not yet taken that becons to you? Take a moment and share your thoughts below, I’d love to hear from you!
Your friend, Vanessa
This post first appeared on Crossdresser Heaven.
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