Hello, it’s me, Daisy, writing from a crazy place in this planet called Brazil.
By the way, the picture above was taken by me a couple of months ago in the city where I live.
In Southern Hemisphere the seasons of the year are opposed to those in the Northern Hemisphere. Imagine your Christmas and your New Year Eve happening after a hot sunny day, a summer between December and March with scorching temperatures and some places getting flooded after heavy rain, temperatures going down from April on, a mild winter from June to August and temperatures going up again from September on. Another difference is day and night duration throughout the year. As the country is closer to the Equator than Europe or North America, days aren’t so long in the summer and nights don’t seem to be eternal during the winter.
After this free Geography class, I’d like to bring some reflections about how our feelings and thoughts may change according to the seasons of the year and, going beyond, how our feminine identities can change our perception of what’s good vs what’s bad weather, compared to our perceptions when we hadn’t acknowledged as girls.
Years before I accept my feminine identity, I loved the winter and the mild temperatures. In Brazil, few places have temperatures going under 32F (0C), so the winter isn’t as harsh as in many places of North America or Europe. I felt myself in a better mood to work and do my routine tasks. Heat, moisture and sweat made me feel my brain getting lazy and, in my opinion, fewer tasks could be accomplished in such conditions. I think that neurones and hormones assume a different and somewhat chaotic behavior in our bodies when temperatures are 100F (37C) or higher.
During two periods of my life (2010-2012 and 2016-2018), I had to defeat a common enemy for many of us called depression. During the journey I took that led me to discover and understand that many of my life struggles were rooted in an unaccepted feminine identity, I started to notice how cloudy days could let my mood as low as the stock shares from any company about to go into bankruptcy.
Another side effect of accepting myself as someone with a feminine identity has been to notice that when I realize that summer is over, my mood gets lower as well. Not only the thoughts of “I haven’t enjoyed enough” or “I should have not cared that much about those errands and should have spent more time on the beach” that go back and forth in my mind, but the idea of having cloudy or rainy days more frequent than sunny days can make my life after March look less joyful and potentially more stressful.
I’m writing this on a rainy day of April and wondering here about whether other CD/TG girls felt this change in their own “mood routine” throughout the year, regardless where they live, after accepting themselves as people with a feminine identity. I don’t know if this may have anything to do with brain, hormones, environmental conditions or everything mixed together and served cold, but I got very curious to know if other girls noticed this change as well. Any comment and suggestion will be welcome with warm heart <3
Meanwhile, I look forward to enjoying sunny days again!