Why am I transgender?

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and wonder, “Why am I this way?” My journey has taken me from denial, through fear, into resolve and let me blossom into who I am at the end. Yet I can’t help wondering what life would be like if I were “normal”, whatever that means.

There are so many things that I wish were different, and some nights I lie awake pining for what so many other women take for granted – to experience the miracle of childbirth, to nurture a family and to live without my past.

It’s easier to see the tainted flowers of self rejection when we’re afraid to take the first step. Many years ago I shared a post by one of our readers and challenged you to accept yourself as you are. I urge you to take a moment to read her words. Even all these years later I’m still moved when she says:

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Finally by avoiding who we are so others will believe us “normal” we start to become the character we have created for their eyes which only causes us more suffering as we see the distance to ourselves growing evermore.

I live every day as the person I am inside – she is my life and there is no other. I have accepted that I am different, but I have not yet accepted that even in overcoming my differences I will never be the same. At times I envy the women who are women and the men who are men – those who move through their day without giving gender a second thought, without having made immense sacrifices to align their gender and without struggling through the consequences of those sacrifices.

Do you accept yourself?

Where are you on the journey to self acceptance? Do you deny the woman inside, and try to suffocate her when she bravely dares to enter your world? Do you indulge her for a time, and then just as quickly purge any feminine belongings you once treasured? Or do you believe you have accepted yourself, and then discover that yet more roads branch out in front of you on the path to acceptance?

Take a moment to share a struggle you’ve had recently in accepting yourself, or perhaps a triumph that you recently had in loving who you are!

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I am not sure how to begin, but here goes. Looking back now I guess all the signs were there, but back then I wasn’t sure what “it” was. I remember a time, I must have been about 3, I got caught wearing a pair of my moms panties, by my parents. Being that young, I guess maybe I didn’t know any better, or did I ? So if I wasn’t already confused about myself already, what happened a couple of years later really didn’t help. Here’s where my story turns to the dark side. When I was between the… Read more »

rhonda
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Sorry about your best friend, I’m going to lose my church group if I come out that’s gonna be tuff to do

Emma Mystique
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Why am I this way? I have asked myself this question more times than I can remember, asking myself am I gay, do I want to be a woman?? to be honest I am not sure any more. I find myself admiring what women are wearing more and more in the past few months, thinking what I would look like as them. But at the moment I still dont have the confidence to do most of the things my fellow sisters on this site are doing and have done. but given time I will get myslef sorted and whatever comes… Read more »

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Stefanie

Why
I think i was taken from the females in my life
My grandmother and then when i moved in with my mom she gad 2 more children and they got the attention
I started with hi heels then pantyhose
Then nail polish
Dresses panties bras
Then i associated it with pornography
And masturbation
Then i was hooked
Then it became stress relief

Then I started asking questions
Got confused
But i think i ve figured it out

I love women and love emulating them
I m heterosexual
Married
Out to wife
Underdress and womens jeans sweaters
I m comfortable
I accept that i like some feminine things but love my manhood

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