You don't need permission to crossdress

A few weeks ago I attended church with Vicki and her wonderful family as Vanessa. It was the first time I’d gone to church as Vanessa, which was quite an experience itself. As much as I’d been yearning to worship God as Vanessa it took a few reassurances that I wouldn’t cause problems at the church, or make life difficult for Vicki and her family before I went. Despite what you may be thinking so far, this week’s post isn’t about going out dressed, or religion. It’ll make sense in a moment…

For those of you who aren’t familiar with the different denominations of Christianity (or religion itself) the traditions can vary quite widely. From casual music and a sermon all the way to a formal service with many scripted sections. The service I attended was more formal than I’d been to since college – which is neither a bad thing or a good thing. It did, however, get me thinking about authority.

Crossdressers Are Under Authority

Pretty much since we’re born we’re under authority. We have people telling us what we can and can’t do. Our parents, our teachers, our pastors. We’re trained to ask for permission before doing something as simple as using the bathroom. And woe to you if someone else has been granted permission just before you – there’s only so many hall passes to go around you know.

This system creates compliant drones ready to join the workforce and wait for a boss to tell them what to do and to set boundaries on what they can’t. This may be a fine way to manage society (though I have contrary views that are beyond the scope of a transgender column), but it is a terrible way to manage your emotions.

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You Don’t Need Permission To Love Yourself!

As crossdressers we’re especially susceptible to the judgments of society. We look around waiting for someone to give us permission to be who we are. Perhaps it’s an understanding wife who lets you wear feminine undergarments at home, or a social organization, or a book you read. Yet for most of us, even with permission to crossdress we still feel ashamed of crossdressing.

Why is that? Why, even without the damnation of those closest to us, and the nearest liberal church do we still find it difficult to love ourselves? I think we’re waiting for permission. We’re waiting for someone to tell us that it’s okay to love ourselves. Just as we are. With all our failings and flaws that concealer can’t hide.

Stop Waiting!

You Don’t Need Permission To Love Yourself!

Decide today that you’re going to love yourself for who you are. Maybe you’re a crossdresser struggling to accept your feminine desires. Maybe you’re the wife of a crossdresser wondering where you failed? Maybe you’re too fat, or too poor, or have too few friends. None of that matters. Love yourself.

If you won’t do it without permission, then I give you permission to love yourself. Say it aloud now, ‘Vanessa gives me permission to love myself. I love myself for who I am.’.

Really. Say it. Your computer will contract a horrible virus and explode if you don’t say it loud enough so that I can hear you.

‘I love myself for who I am’

Did you check that your microphone was on? I could bare hear a mumbling from the other end. All I have are these words (and the ability to make your computer explode), so just say it. Do it because you’re afraid of the mess your computer will make if you don’t, or because you just want to move on to the next article, or because you have enough faith in yourself to know that only good can come from this.

‘I love myself for who I am’

You might just find that when you love yourself the world seems a bit brighter, and you have more love to share with others. You are beautiful just as you are. Thank you for joining me this week.


P.S. I don’t really have the ability to make your computer explode. However, if it  does explode I recommend you contact the manufacturer immediately and get your fabulous clothes far from harms way. Melted skirt is not a good look for you….

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Jessica De Leon
Jessica De Leon
14 years ago

So true. Loving and accepting yourself is such a hurdle for many transgendered people. We are programmed to seek validation and permission and we need to overcome that to be who we are.

Stacy
Stacy
14 years ago

What a wonderful post!

Stace

PS: And thanks for the permisson – the computer didn’t explode, but it did start to stutter 🙂

Christina Jenkins
Christina Jenkins
14 years ago
Reply to  Stacy

Dear Vanessa

Thank you for sharing this wonderful experience. Yes the computor did explode but only with pleasure!

I am fortunate in that I can attend a branch of the Metropolitan Community Church which is fully inclusiv. It even accepts ‘straight’ people!

Hugs – Christina

Vicki
Vicki
14 years ago

Jessica, I still think we DO need validation in relation with others, we are after all social creatures. But bottom line is that it can’t even begin to start if we can’t love ourselves. So you are absolutely right on that score. Here is hoping that once we feel validated by ourselves, we begin to find the courage and the base to present to the world as a fully realized person and then validation from others will come, or maybe more important, we don’t live off of it, but live in a way that others might want to be known… Read more »

Patrice
Patrice
14 years ago

Hi Vanessa, I thought I’d like to share my experiences with proper bra fittings (8 out of 10 women, we know, wear the wrong size bra). I searched the web and came up with a great site that has videos on fittings, care of our intimates, bra stories, etc….all you have to do is follow the links….the site is http://www.macys.com/fitmatters .After I saw the videos, I went to my local Macys and arranged for a fitting. The salesgirl was an expert. I was wearing bras one size smaller and one cup size smaller. Long story short, I purchased 2 Bali… Read more »

romi chambers
romi chambers
7 years ago
Reply to  Patrice

Very nice moments in shopping cool times were had

Terri
Terri
14 years ago

The real truth is that i was able to pass a girl at the age of seven or eight, and yes i did pass even in school where most thought that I was a girl

Terri yes this is how my name really is on my birth certificate do to the fact my parents wanted a girl

Tracey Rose
Tracey Rose
8 years ago

thank you vanessa , I do love myself, thank you though, and you are right , its one of the hardest things to do.

tracey x

skippy1965 Cynthia
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8 years ago
Reply to  Tracey Rose

Tracey-one of the hardest but also one of the most valuable and rewarding as well!

Jennifergordon
Member
8 years ago

All great!

Vera Jane Gonsalves
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Vera Jane Gonsalves
7 years ago

Thank you Vanessa….. for a wonderful article. I really thank God for awesome folk people like you. I already feel better about myself….. God bless you
Vera Jane.

romi chambers
romi chambers
7 years ago

Love my self I do and only getting better thanks for a great article!

VanessaC
VanessaC
7 years ago

Yes, well said

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