There are moments in life that reach into the deep of our soul and remind us how lovingly connected we can be with others. When someone sees for who you are and accepts you it’s as if time stands still. In an instant the core of your being opens up and is bared for them to see. Without judgement, or embarrassment or hesitation. Your truth blossoms like a flower in spring time, and their acceptance is a breeze gently flowing past. Touching, knowing and refreshing.
And there are still other moments that resonate so strongly our spirits can’t help but dance in unison. When someone knows you and looks deep within to see you – to truly see you – and loves you then words to describe it become nothing more than an inadequate attempt to describe shadows behind a dimly lit veil. It’s as if the flower of your soul has opened up, and the warmth of their sunshine gently cups your newly blossomed bud. Nurturing and drawing the light of your beauty skyward.
As many of you know, I recently had facial feminization surgery. The process of recovery is not pretty – your face is sore, bruised and swollen. The incisions are still red as the blood rushes to heal, and scars show through – on your head, under your nose, around your ears. You’re beat up and feeling like it.
Slowly, slowly healing takes place. Every day I wear a facial garment to keep the swelling in check, and at least 3 times a day it comes off for a massage to aid in healing. I’m blessed that my dad and his girlfriend are spending a month with me to help me recover. Tonight she had just taken my facial garment off to begin the massage when my dad turned to me and said two words with a depth and sincerity that shocked me to tears.
So simple, so short and yet I felt time pause as my spirit basked in the light of his seeing me, knowing me, and loving me still so deeply. I began to softly cry as we shared a time where we were truly open in love for each other as we talked and hugged and held each other.
Tonight I go to sleep feeling loved, affirmed and encouraged.
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