Join Our Team

The Crossdresser Heaven Ambassadors are a team of volunteers from around the world who help ensure Crossdresser Heaven is a safe, welcoming and supportive place for everyone in the transgender community.

If you are interested in joining our team please contact Maria.

When selecting Ambassadors we look for members who have demonstrated empathy, who are active in the community and who will provide a welcoming environment for everyone who joins the Crossdresser Heaven Community. We would also love to add more geographic diversity to our team of Ambassadors – here’s looking at you Ireland, New Zealand, Canada, South Africa, India and others!

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Leadership

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Assistant Managing Ambassador - Media

Joined: 2021-01-11

United States of America

Gabriela Romani

Last Online: 42 minutes ago

I have a beautiful wife who sadly is not accepting of my gender issues. I do my best to exist within the limits of my situation as my family is the most important thing in my life.


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Resident Editor

Joined: 2020-05-02

France

Sophie Frenchie

Last Online: 19 hours ago

I began this journey the day I opened my eyes for the very first time. I found this site at a time when I needed support more than any other point in my life. I had chosen to transition after years of internal turmoil, failing to be able understand or accept who and what I was. My life moved on at a pace that I found hard to deal with at times, but I managed. Living alone in the South West of France life was far from simple or easy then.

Then, I discovered this oasis online, finding love, understanding and support unequalled to anything I have previously come across. Dare I suggest, my other family! So, why return after leaving about two years back? At the point, my life was changing dramaticaly, everything I had believed, understood and built my life around, up until that point, changed almost overnight.

I am very settled in my life now living as a woman, with friends and a social life, all while being the happiest I have been. I am in the medical system here after overcoming many obstacles, now with the hope of surgery very soon to complete my transition. I have returned here in the hope that my experiences and knowledge can be of help to others in this community. When very young, I dreamed of being a girl, going to bed at night hoping I would awake as a girl. After realising that wasn't going to happen, I shut down that wish and lived a repressed existence from that day. It took a lifetime of unintentionally hurting myself and others, regretfully!
Perhaps the one true regret of my life!


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Assistant Managing Ambassador - Groups & Forums

Joined: 2019-02-22

United Kingdom

Dawn Wyvern

Last Online: 7 hours ago

Long termTG living next to the sea side in the Duchy of Cornwall, UK, with my wonderful partner and 2 batty cats !

I enjoy canoeing, cycling, Traveling and burlesque.

I work as a nurse practitioner in the Oil and Gas industry, and supports many people from the Transgender community.

I have been out and about for many years, and spend a large portion of my time fem.

If you wish to become ‘friends’ with me, please PM me at the same time so as I can get to know you first, rather than just collect names on your list. I am very approachable, but would like to get some idea about who you are and why you would like to link to me.


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Assistant Managing Ambassador - Significant Other Group

Joined: 2018-09-23

United Kingdom

eleanor holborn

Last Online: 2 days ago

I support my partner as much as I can


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Assistant Managing Ambassador - Chat Crew

Joined: 2018-09-20

United States of America

BillieJay

Last Online: 4 hours ago

a little on the experienced side of age.
I love motorcycles, painted toes, high heels, and skirts.
I am a professional in an "old school" technical profession.
US Navy Veteran.
and happy to share experiences with others

in 2019 I went out with the girls for the first time, and I've had a ball doing it. most of the time my wife, "Mrs Jay" goes with me.
I've met (and hugged) about 10 of our members when I'm out, always en-femme, and enjoy our adventures.
hopefully that number will grow, hugely, in the next couple of months!


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Executive Advisor

Joined: 2018-02-14

United States of America

Maria

Last Online: 3 months ago

Dedicated to the protection and continued service to Crossdresser Heaven to ensure It remains the #1 and safest CD/TG support site in the world.

The success or failure of your deeds does not add up to the sum of your life. Your spirit cannot be weighed. Judge yourself by the intention of your actions and by the strength with which you faced the challenges that have stood in your way.

Contact info: maria@crossdresserheaven.com


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Managing Ambassador

Joined: 2018-01-21

United States of America

Sa•man•tha

Last Online: 18 hours ago

Hello, I work a blue collar job, have a son, and live in a house. In my spare time (which I never have enough of) I enjoy listening to music and sipping wine. I also like to draw and paint among numerous other hobbies lost to the shades of time. I love the outdoors and when the weather is decent you're liable to find me fishing, hiking or camping.


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Assistant Managing Ambassador

Joined: 2017-05-09

United States of America

Miss Cloe

Last Online: 1 day ago

CC is Virginia’s girl who began her journey in the 4th grade when she secretly wore her sister’s hand me down jeans to school. She was closeted CD for many years, but came out in 2016 at the age of 50 and now considers herself TG. A compassionate and empathetic lady, she loves to help people. She earned her nickname when she helped a CDH member with celebrating her start on HRT by having a Cup Cake. In June 2018 she began living her life authentically and has several milestones planned ahead.


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Managing Editor

Joined: 2016-03-13

United States of America

Sabrina (Brina) MacTavish

Last Online: 3 hours ago

Brina is from Iowa. She is currently the Managing Editor of CDH and TGH. When she isn't busy on-site, she spends her time writing--more than a hobby, but still seeking that 1st bestseller. Under her male guise, she has 5 published works of fiction and one short novella under Brina's deplume. A recently completed CD novel should be ready in the next year and Brina hopes it can become a series with fun characters.


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Founder

Joined: 2012-04-18

United States of America

Vanessa Law

Last Online: 2 days ago

I’m passionate about creating a safe space for everyone in the transgender community to find laughter and friendship on their journey. I completed my physical transition in 2011 and through it I lost everything, and gained everything. I am blessed that I was forced to gaze inward and embark on the journey to discover and live my authentic self. My deepest wish is that all who wander here may find peace, happiness and freedom.


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Editors

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Editor

Joined: 2019-07-04

United States of America

Alexis "Lexi" Moon

Last Online: 4 weeks ago

40-something, married "baby" trans. Been crossdressing since age 5, but just this year finally accepted that my obsession with dressing in womens' clothes is ultimately driven by the fact that I'm happier presenting as a woman. Still trying to figure out what that means, but just trying to enjoy the ride for now!

I'm also a guitarist/singer/songwriter that performs under the name Inner Psyche. You can find me on all the usual streaming platforms. DM if you want to learn more!


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Associate Editor

Joined: 2018-06-28

United States of America

Scarlett398

Last Online: 17 hours ago

I love the thrill of cross dressing and based on the CDH girls' comments in response to my posted photos, I must be pretty good at exploring the feminine side of myself. I find it sexy, sensual, exciting, challenging, and ever changing. I'm so very blessed now to have as much money as I want to spend on Scarlett and can now, for the very first time in fifteen years, actually purchase dresses, tops, and skirts while shopping with my wife! I never thought that would ever come to fruition!

I can now store all of Scarlett's things in our huge dream home when just a short period of time ago, it would all have to be kept in a temperature controlled storage unit.

I love Crossdresser Heaven and know it's the classiest and most tasteful cross dressing site on line. All the girls are full of support and encouragement and if folks come to the site with alternative motives which aren't in line with our founder’s rules and regulations, they are quickly deleted from our site. Vanessa Law, our founder, keeps this site classy at all times. She has much help from her Ambassadors, Chat Room Monitors, Photo Monitors, Article Editors, and many more personnel to keep this site classy, encouraging, and supportive.


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Resident Editor

Joined: 2018-05-27

United States of America

Michelle Liefde

Last Online: 4 days ago

When I was young , I loved Deborah Harry. I thought it was just a crush, but realized not only did I find her attractive but what she would wear. When I was 11, I first tried on a dress, pantyhose and bra. I had waited for my family to go out and finally decided to try. We had a storage area in our garage where my mom had some of her old clothes. I would go out there a much as I could. Eventually, I was found out. I buried this part of myself for over 30 years. I spent that time being happy, sad and repressed. Then about 2-3 years ago, I finally admitted to myself that I wanted to try again. After a little time, I told my wife and luckily she has been growing with me as I figure learn more about Michelle. I smile everytime Michelle comes out. I feel happier when I look in the mirror and see her.


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Editor

Joined: 2018-01-08

United States of America

Ashley Parker

Last Online: 1 year ago

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Editor

Joined: 2016-04-03

United States of America

April (Pacific Princess)

Last Online: 15 hours ago

I am finally exploring transitioning after years of thinking about it. I have been crossdressing since about the age of 7, and took a 30+ year hiatus from dressing while I was busy raising my family. I started dressing again a few years ago, and lately I have realized that I am TG, not simply someone who likes to crossdress. I finally like who I am, and though I am moving closer and closer to who I want to be, I'm not quite sure who that is yet. I recently started dressing almost every day, and it is interesting, but the more I explore my female self and the closer I get to moving ahead with transitioning the more relaxed my style gets. I'm still a bit of a perfectionist though, and love going “all out” when the time calls for it. I'm just finally at peace with who I am and can't wait to keep moving forward.


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Editor

Joined: 2015-11-02

United States of America

Joanna R.

Last Online: 2 months ago

AKA Triple D or DDJ. Along with the other J’s we are the newest arrivals to the Corps. We each bring a sympathetic and caring ear to the chat room. Joanna R is from South Florida and hopes she can help you to find the confidence to step out into the real world.


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Editor

Joined: 2015-10-11

Canada

Char

Last Online: 1 month ago

Dropping out of high school I began touring in the Canadian country music scene at age 17; clubs and soft seat venues, drummer/vocalist for 22 years.

After 4 suicide attempts and heavy cocaine etc addiction issues, i decided to learn Self-Acceptance as apposed to self-hatred.

I became a student of the Universe and an Instructor of Life Skills at a local College while operating a Private Coaching Practice.

Currently, I am rebuilding the Life Coaching practice after a couple years of more personal work well under way.

I am also creating online opportunities that will serve our world community…and our world in understanding how the learned life skills of Intentionally and Consciously Creating an Amazing Life have filled my life with Passion, Purpose and Prosperity and they can for you as well... Namaste'


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Ambassadors

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Chat Ambassador

Joined: 2021-02-22

Australia

Rachel Jane

Last Online: 5 hours ago

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Chat Ambassador

Joined: 2020-09-09

United States of America

Misty Lynn

Last Online: 4 days ago

I guess, thinking about it, I have been, in some form or another, cross dressing for many years.


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Ambassador - Forums

Joined: 2020-06-10

Canada

Stevie Steiner

Last Online: 1 hour ago

Hey, I'm in way over my head probably. Single and older now, and accepting it after years of being in the closet. Actually, accepted it a long time ago, when I realized my inside didn't jive with what I saw in the mirror, just now being public about it. First site/group/support I have ever experienced - Always a loner in this. I started CD at 10 or so. Underdressed on and off thru the decades. Now full time, but mostly private, and dressing more full Stevie now.
Am I TG, am I CD? More confused about that since joining....Update: scratch that, I am TG.


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Lead Ambassador - Chat

Joined: 2020-01-07

United States of America

Prudence

Last Online: 10 hours ago

My progression of who I am is changing. My first time on CDH I chose Robyn. Just an extension of my male name. So I stayed with that name this time. But my male side would suppress her. Push her back inside and keep her hidden. I believe Prudence will help me further my journey to who I really am. I look forward to new discoveries and experiences with my Friends here at CDH.


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Ambassador - Media

Joined: 2019-11-29

United States of America

Michelle Jamison

Last Online: 1 day ago

CD who feels much younger than I really am. Emulate those who present themselves as the most feminine versions of selves. Would not want to ever appear to be "guy in drag" but want my look to be cute, flirty and feminine. Wish to appear appropriate for age. Goal would be to have GG's see me and only think "I really like her outfit", or " I love her shoes". Have purged I past and have decided Shelli will always be with me, so I want her to be happy, pampered and enjoy all of the things she has always dreamed of. She should never settle for outfits that do not flatter her or prevent her from feeling like the pretty woman she is.


  
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Ambassador

Joined: 2019-04-17

United States of America

Samantha Roarke

Last Online: 1 week ago

Hello, my name is Samantha Roarke, I would like to chat with like minded people whom are nice. I want to talk with other CDers about their process and what they do and like about crossdressing. I would love to hang out with other crossdresser dressed up and out on the town. I'm a real person, please respect me. Also I have ZERO room for bullshit/flakey people! Trolls move along! Just a little heads up, I stopped adding "friends" to my profile, I am cleaning that area up at the moment. If you have any questions about crossdressing, I do always have a open ear to listen and help the best I can.

Basic Samantha Stats:
175 lbs.
5'10"
Blue eyes
Blonde
Full C-cup
Size: 6/7
Shoe: 11


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Ambassador

Joined: 2019-03-28

United States of America

Deanna Lund

Last Online: 1 year ago

64yo male, been interested in CD all life but have not had time or opportunity to explore my feminine side. Married, 3 children 2 grand children


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Big Sister

Joined: 2019-03-19

United States of America

Robyn Drake

Last Online: 4 hours ago

I came to crossdressing later then I would have liked, now that I have time to reflect on it. But better late then never. So much to learn and unlearn. I remain a work in progress. I just changed my gender here from gender fluid to non-binary, ask me again next week.


  
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Ambassador - Chat

Joined: 2018-10-28

United States of America

Robin Kliment

Last Online: 3 hours ago

I really don't know where I'm going with this all, but certainly do know HOW I'm getting there. We all have to choose a place to sit and I guess I've chosen "gender-fluid". There are things in both genders that have GREAT value to me and I intend to enjoy them all to their maximum potential. My wife lost her battle with lung cancer so I guess I'm not hurting anyone anymore. I am 5'8 in flats, 36-30-35, and a size 8 dress. I do not engage in sex outside of a long-term committed relationship.

I am currently on a quest of self-acceptance and discovery. Kansas City-Denver-Omaha I visit all and live in none.(I travel a LOT for my work) I'm not looking for a relationship but I do miss companionship. This all is VERY real for me, so please don't waste my time with anything else.
NOTE---do NOT buy wigs from Paula Young, they're NOT discreet


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Ambassador - Forums

Joined: 2018-02-06

United States of America

Terri Anne

Last Online: 15 hours ago

My name is Terri Anne.
I started crossdressing as a teen. My very first time was a stretchy sheath dress. I will never forget how comfortable it was. It just felt right!


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Ambassador - Profiles

Joined: 2017-08-07

United States of America

Gina Angelo

Last Online: 2 weeks ago

Freshly minted CD, but now realize I am better described as a Two Spirit. Finally free to be me and find my inner peace. A professional with two personalities and sexualities


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Ambassador - Forums

Joined: 2017-06-26

Canada

Stephanie Flowers

Last Online: 12 hours ago

retired and am happily married over 40 years to a wonderful woman who opened up to this side of me. For many years I felt these feelings but family and every day life always came not allowing me to express the passons inside me. By years end i made great strides and now 2 plus years later I finally have reached in fully dressing but still learning the finer qualities as in makeup, fashions styles and bettering my appearance. As my confidence started to improve many experience's have happened. Allowing me more to express my femininity. happy to find cdheaven and to understand all that is happening and now I am truly enjoying my journey and I'm looking forward what's ahead . Thank you.


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Ambassador - Media

Joined: 2017-05-20

Sweden

Marianne

Last Online: 22 hours ago

I am a latent mtf transgender who has been secretly crossdressing since my early teens. Started going out fully en femme in the fall of 2012. Married with three sons. Diagnosed with Parkinson's disease in november 2012.


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Ambassador - Local Chapters

Joined: 2016-05-19

United States of America

MacKenzie Alexandra

Last Online: 5 days ago

After keeping part of me hidden for 20 years, MacKenzie has embraced all of who she is. With the support of her wife, she has embarked on an adventure of exploration. Over the past year, I have learned a lot about myself - that learning was not limited to only feminine me.


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Ambassador - Groups

Joined: 2016-02-18

United States of America

Jackie

Last Online: 4 days ago

I think I'm doing the right thing here people. Like probably every male to ever get into they're mothers, sisters, aunts clothing I too was just knee high to a pair of my mothers stockings (sounded better than knee high to a grasshopper) and continue to wear what suits me. I didn't choose this lifestyle, it chose me. I also do drag, one could say I'm a silent type of queen for I only participate in amateur lip sync from time to time when I'm at a club or bar. I don't own any male clothing that I'm aware of. I am a strong supporter of LGBTQ+ communities, PRIDE and advocate for gay rights. I'm still confused why there has to be such a thing as gay rights in our world today but it is what it is and I will continue the fight. Allot of people here at CDH know I am a very easy going kind of girl but when the line is crossed I say what it is and no more nice. I do my best to complete my tasks as an ambassador here. If you happen to be reading my profile it say's one or a few things, 1. curiosity, 2. nosy, 3. preparing to interview me for a job or 4. because we share more commonalities than most people in this world. My first mentor (Drag Mother) in the drag life and who also became my best friend always said; "anyone can put a dress on, it's how one wears the dress that counts and matters." K well this bio didn't come out short like it asks but considering who I am and the lifestyle I've led and still follow it's actually damn short. C ya here, Jackie.


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Ambassador - Groups

Joined: 2015-10-12

United States of America

Leonara

Last Online: 12 hours ago

I dress enfemme when the opportunity presents itself. I dress conservatively. Always trying to be the lady. My profile picture represents my latestmakeover feeling more feminine each day.


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Ambassador - Media

Joined: 2015-09-09

United States of America

Samantha G.....

Last Online: 3 days ago

Hails from Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. I've been crossdressing since age 12 with off and on activity till age 27 when I first fully dressed. After that I knew it was going to be a lifelong obsession. Try to dress several times a month but sometimes life gets in the way. No worries though, my sense of humor gets me through just about anything. Have the box set of all the Monty Python episodes too. 🙂


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Ambassador - Greetings

Joined: 2015-08-24

United States of America

skippy1965 Cynthia

Last Online: 18 hours ago

The Original Cyn, or OC for short. Cynthia is from Richmond Virginia, she crossdresses every day (lucky gal!) and has a knack for tracking down niggling technical issues so we can fix them.
She is also on a journey of self-examination to figure out where her feminine journey will lead her, and is always willing to talk with others about their feelings and questions or her own.


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Ambassador - Forums

Joined: 2015-08-22

United States of America

Claudia C

Last Online: 4 weeks ago

A CD with a nice mini skirt collection and various points of view spanning multiple views based on region and culture.


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Chat Hostesses

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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2021-03-18

India

Eshyl Janus

Last Online: 2 months ago

Storyteller by profession. And explorer by hobby.

Have always flirted with the idea of crossdressing. Tried it out for the first time 3 years ago. Covid lockdown gave me an opportunity to explore it further. This is the first time I am out on a public forum.


  
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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2020-04-26

United States of America

Peaches Victoria

Last Online: 1 day ago

I'm a lady/girly girl


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2020-01-08

United States of America

Suzanne Martin

Last Online: 7 months ago

I am 66 and retired.


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-11-17

United Kingdom

Samantha Joan

Last Online: 5 days ago

My crossdressing journey started at the age of 13, although upon reflection, it probably started a lot earlier.

Growing up and trying to dress was difficult. There was no internet, so my access to fully understanding and knowledge was almost zero. My parents knew, talking was tough as instead of confronting my crossdressing I ran away from the conversation, sadly never to be talked about again.

Like my favourite sci-fi saga, there was an awakening in the force, Samantha came into being, thanks to some very supportive people who fully invest in my journey.

I am here to be part of this wonderful community, support others and share my experiences, plus if anyone knows the secret to a perfect, flawless makeup look, please let me know.

Thanks for reading!

Hugs,

Samantha x x x


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-05-22

United States of America

Stacy Ann May

Last Online: 5 months ago

Hi. I'm Stacy Ann, I'm 50. I'm only now really beginning my transition journey. I've known that I've wanted to be a woman for a long time, but denied it for most of my life. I'm tired of feeling guilty about having these feelings. I don't know if I will ever get to the point where I will have full gender confirmation surgery. At this point I simply hope to reach a place where I can finally accept this part of myself and make some peace with it.

Thank you for reading my bio!


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-05-19

United Kingdom

Sophie Underhill

Last Online: 2 months ago

I have crossdressed on and off since childhood. Opportunities for me to do this are rare but when I go on business trips or cycling trips I love to make use of the anonymity of the hotel room. I am always looking forward to the next trip!
I went out en femme for the first time a earlier this year.


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-03-03

United States of America

Ellie Mae

Last Online: 1 week ago

EA few weeks ago I decided, with the help of my therapist, that I am a trans person. Could be transexual or transgender, not sure it matters. What does matter is that I have felt like a woman for the better part of sixty years and Ellie Mae is finally living the life that dreams are made of. I want to celebrate my femininity with hair, nail color, shaving my body, wearing a bit of makeup even when drab, wearing women's clothing 100% of the time at home, and panties full time. I love going out with friends (Dawnie and April) dressed up to the 9's and having dinner with The Rose City T-Girls. I also love spending time in the chat room. Sometimes I go there when I'm lonely, sad or happy. You girls saved my life last year when my former wife told me she couldn't be married to a CD/TG person and now I believe it is my responsibility when someone new comes in and asks for help. Being Trans isn't easy but thank God for CDH, where we can support one another in a safe environment. Ellie


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-01-15

United States of America

Trisha T

Last Online: 1 day ago

Been crossdressing since I was 10 the older I get the more I want to get in touch with my feminine side


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2019-01-04

United States of America

Dawnie Saxton

Last Online: 15 hours ago

I'm nearly 70 years old, Been gender Identity conflicted since age three. I have recently started living fulltime as a woman as much as possible (about 90% feminine/ 10% male now).
I used to be a regular in Transchat.Sister. org site for about 14 years. I would like to hear from my old friends, and am not interested in meeting men or contacts for sex.


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2018-07-17

Australia

Chloe Moet

Last Online: 4 days ago

I'm a happy go lucky girl who loves to wear her dresses and skirts and match them with some nice high heels and go out . Hoping to meet and chat with like minded people.


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2018-05-16

United States of America

Marianne Ferrara

Last Online: 8 months ago

There are some good things and bad things, boring and funny ones (I hope) basic is: I started transitioning in 2007 and HRT in 2009. The rest is up to you to ask me 🙂


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2018-02-28

United States of America

April Meyer

Last Online: 11 hours ago

I am a blossoming girl, trying to go from drap to glam if not full time than sometime. Believe that love conquers all hate is easy better the hard way then that way.


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Chat Hostess

Joined: 2017-11-26

United States of America

Dawn Judson

Last Online: 4 days ago

As I said, originally, I'm sure we all have very similar stories, but yes, I’m a happy girl when I’m Dawn. I'm feeling more & more comfortable. I’ve been crossdressing since I was about 10. Until recently, I always felt like I enjoyed it– but wished I didn’t. I think it was something I was born with, but the thing that I felt that really awakened the desire in me, was a "TRUE" magazine article. I happened to find it on the top shelf of a closet (How appropriate). Naturally, I curiously looked through the magazine, perhaps, hoping to find pictures of nude women. But then, I came across an article entitled, “My Husband Became a Woman”. Suddenly, I wanted to see how it felt to be a girl & started trying on things that belonged to my mom & sister. It felt so good & actually excited me, sexually.

I’m pretty sure that my mom knew about it. She had caught me, trying on a pair of my granny’s shoes, once, and I’m sure that she could tell that someone had been into her clothes– especially when I accidentally got makeup on a white sundress & didn’t have time to clean it. There was also a time when my best friend asked me if I had mascara on (Apparently, I hadn’t done a good job of washing it off.) I told him, “No, I was taking a nap. That’s why my eyes look like this.” I don’t think he bought it.

I wasn’t gay. I liked girls & had several girlfriends throughout high school. I was still doing the closet thing, but when I was with them, crossdressing never crossed (pardon the pun) my mind . Also, never really thought about it while serving a few years in the Armed Forces. But it all seemed to come back when my wife & I were dating & we went to a friend’s Halloween Party as the opposite sexes. Shortly after we got married, I played a trick on her, one morning, as we were getting ready for work. She had her clothes laid out for the day. While she was showering, I put her bra on under my shirt. She couldn’t figure out where she had put it. I wanted to see how long it would take her to find it. Again, it felt good.

The following year, I admitted to her that I enjoyed it & asked her if she’d mind. She said OK. I didn’t do it often, but I got a little carried away, one weekend, and pierced my own ears. No one said anything about it at work, but I’m sure the holes were noticable. Then, we threw our own Halloween party. You guessed it. She was a guy. I was a French maid.

Our oldest kids are girls. I still “dressed up”, occasionally, when they were young, but when the boys came along, I stopped & purged what little clothing I had.

Once the boys grew up & moved out, I found myself wearing some of my wife’s clothes. In fact, over the years, although she rarely lets me wear lingerie to bed, our foreplay involves her doing things to me that would normally be done to a woman. No, she’s not gay either, although I have daydreamed about what it would be like to have lesbian sex with her. That said, crossdressing doesn’t seem to sexually stimulate me like it once did. Instead, it gives me more of a feeling of joy & satisfaction– like this feels right & it’s who I should be.

I’m really opening up, here, and it is quite liberating to do so. Thank goodness that I found Crossdresser Heaven. I never wanted to apply the term, “crossdresser” to myself. I was very apprehensive about joining CDH, initially, and have remained guarded about posting, but the more time I spend as Dawn, the more confident I become. I’m enjoying the replies I’m getting from my “sisters”. There’s acceptance here. I no longer feel like a “freak”. It’s amazing how many others have the same issue that I do. Three years ago, I would have never thought that I could be this open about “my little secret”.

I started doing some online shopping & expanded my wardrobe. I’m a 14, but I’m hoping to get down to a 12. I have a little roll I need to get rid of. I’d also like to get a little plastic surgery. I’ve also considered electrolysis & some herbs to slightly enhance my breasts (I don’t have much in that area). Any suggestions, I’m all ears. Also, after many years, playing sports, my legs are kind of beat up. I’d like to wear shorts or a casual skirt without hose. Any ideas about how to shape them up?

Last Halloween (Ain’t that a wonderful holiday?), I attended two different parties– one in just a flowered dress (a guy tried to pick me up) & the other as a St. Pauli Girl. Since last year, I’ve gotten involved with a couple of different crossdressing groups which has allowed me to come out of the closet a bit. My schedule hasn’t allowed me to attend very many meetings, but when I can, it has helped me find who I am & to admit to myself that I am a crossdresser. Does that make me transgendered? I’m not sure. Being honest with myself, I'd love to see what it feels like to become a real woman, but my wife says she would leave me if I did. I couldn’t do that to her. She didn’t “sign up for this”. She’s the best thing that ever happened to me.

I find that I’m spending more time as Dawn, but I have to be careful not to upset my wife. We had a pretty deep conversation, yesterday. She let me buy a new wig, on Friday, and she bought me a pair of capris, a skirt & two pairs of earrings, yesterday. She’s accepting that Dawn is a part of our lives; that I need Dawn. My wife even says that, as Dawn, I seem to be more productive around the house and assist her with “womanly” chores, but she’s worried that maybe she shouldn’t be encouraging me.

Maybe she’s right. When I look in the mirror at my male self, I'm not happy with that old man looking back at me. But, as Dawn, I’m very happy with the way I’m looking (In fact, because she doesn’t like me coming to bed, as Dawn, I have to take it all off- but that's getting harder to do). My make-up skills are improving. My wife now says that she thinks I could “pass” in public (I have to work on the voice, though) not only as a woman, but as a woman 20 years yonger than my true age. I look & feel younger when I’m Dawn. When I exercise, for some reason, I feel stronger & more energetic as Dawn. Many people, who have seen pictures of Dawn or seen her at one of those Halloween parties, say that I look better as a woman than I do as a man. I have to agree. We may be planning a “Girls Day Out”, soon, going shopping, having lunch & getting manicures & pedicures.

Sometimes, I get frustrated with my job & other things in my life, but I find crossdressing therapeutic. Put me in a dress and it completely lightens my mood. My depression used to be worse & sometimes incapacitating. Looking back, perhaps subconsciously, I was down because I couldn’t be a woman or, at least, look like one.

Is this what’s missing in my life? I’m worried that if I am even considering transitioning, I'd better do it soon or it'll be too late. I don't want to live my whole life, not realizing my dream & being who I think I was meant to be. How sad would that be? I think my wife realizes that & that’s why she’s reluctantly giving me the “green light”– so I can enjoy the next best thing to being a woman while I can.

Life’s short. Be gorgeous!


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Joined: 2015-12-29

United States of America

Rachel J Rose

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Started dressing at about 7 years of age, got the bug big time about 30 years ago.


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Joined: 2015-09-06

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Sheryl Johnstone

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Hi, I'm Sheryl from the Latrobe Valley, Gippsland, Victoria, Australia.
I am 64 and have been cross dressing since I was very young and only in the last few years have I realised that I am transgender. I have felt as if I should have been born female for most of my life but did not know why.


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Kayla

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I am a CIS Woman. I am here to support my SO and other members


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Part time crossdresser


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I will likely not be here very often and may be unable to respond to you. Please contact one of the Ambassadors if you would like to reach me.


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Joined: 2015-10-07

United States of America

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I really do not know what to write. I am just a person who just wishes to feel free to be myself. I believe I have been living in a lie all my life, and I avoided my inner self to preserve what I thought I needed to be for those who love me. I didn’t want to let them down by telling them I am different. But I grew up and realized that there is no running from yourself and that the past has a way of always coming back to remind you that there is no happiness in living in a lie.


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Joined: 2015-08-23

United States of America

Codille Benton

Last Online: 1 week ago

I am a MTF Crossdresser for 30+ years. I came to CDH in April of 2015, Looking for Friends and Support just like everyone else, as I was looking to take my first big steps out the door. That seems so long ago thanks to the members of this site and their love.

I am very active participant and I also the Manager of the site, which began as a blog by Vanessa Law. What I think Vanessa asking me to manage the sites means... I have been dressing for a while so I have a lot of things to offer others, I am organized and I REALLY like talking to people 🙂

If you haven’t read all my profile, I welcome you to please do so, it gives you a pretty good idea of who I am. Here is the link something that will tell you more about me. https://www.crossdresserheaven.com/crossdresser-without-transitioning/ There have been more than a few personal updates to this as well in the responses. A Sequel article is in the works as well as a lot has changed in two years, but here is the beginning. If the link doesn’t work check under the in the stories section at the top of your profile page, mine is the one with the Phoenix image, so just about all about me can be found in those two places. Also I am an open book and will answer almost any question posted to me.

I welcome to a whole new world, that you can be you, no judging just friendship, helpful tips and lots support.

As for the site, the ladies are amazing and friendly. Almost no question will not be answered (Just keep it tasteful), by someone who has been there where you are in some way. I have met some incredible ladies that just want someone else that is a crossdresser to talk to and be a friend. You will feel at home immediately. If you want to jump right in write your profile and let people your journey, if you want to stick your toe into the water first, go to the forums link, and go to the new members page, just say hi and then browse all the great insight these wonderful women have already put there. Just so you know all of the post are from people like you and me, not some expert, but women that all are looking for answers or just someone else to talk to.

We also have a for the pride of your part of the world. We are a growing community so if you don’t see a group link listed for your specific country, link up with the next closest. Trust me the site is growing fast enough we will be adding more groups as soon as there are enough people you won’t be by yourself. So follow this link and find ladies in your area: https://www.crossdresserheaven.com/groups/

As for me, I also have been asked to give guidance, again that whole I have been dressing a while thing, but I too am looking for some HELP as I certainly don’t have all the answer to Life, The Universe and Everything CD. So I want to say HI!!!!!! Thanks so much for accepting my friendship request and I look forward to talking with you soon!!!

Hugs,

Codille Benton
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