A couple of months ago, my wife and I were on holiday in the Italian Alps enjoying a week of wellness at a spa hotel. At check-in the hotel was offering female clientele a free manicure and polish. My half joking question was: “What are you offering the men?” Apparently nothing but I was free to take-up the manicure and polish offer. My wife said I should go for it so I booked an appointment for the next day…
Nervously I showed up for my appointment. Such a relaxing experience! Strangely (at least it was then) I really wanted to have my nails painted bright red. Instead I settled for a more inconspicuous grey.
Despite the color, my nails were so shiny. I couldn’t believe how much joy this brought me. I couldn’t keep my eyes off them! It was such a wonderful experience, I realized that I was expressing the real me for the first time. I was a nervous of what people might say to me but nobody said a thing, except my encouraging wife. The world didn’t end I really enjoyed those nails all week!
Since then, something has clearly been released inside me. Is it the real me? Is it a phase? Is it my feminine side or something deeper? Was I meant to be something else, suppressed in youth and hidden under years of fake masculinity? To be honest I am not yet sure.
Since then my progression has been swift. I paint my nails a different color every weekend and have even been shopping for women’s clothes. I wear them out in town (not skirts yet). I don’t care. I’m happy and my wife is amazingly understanding. I’m a lucky…. girl.
I have no idea where this will lead.
Stephie (it feels so nice to use my girl name)
You must be logged in to reply to this topic.