I wanted to be desirable. I wanted to be cute and sexy. Somewhere a switch flipped and I wanted to be a all those things but as a girl. I started creating Jill in my head and made her as sexy as I could. Everyone would want to date Jill. I never got to do this when I was in my twenties or thirties but I wish I had. I would have loved to have spent my life as a cute submissive wife. At least that is the mythology I created in my head. Now I am getting to build at least part of this in my actual life.