Candice, crossdressing is different things to each individual. It would appear that you have associated it with your desire to have a relationship with a man (sexual, I would assume). Many CDs don’t have homosexual or bisexual tendencies. Others do. Please be aware that some men may be willing to have sex with you as Candice, but finding one who will truly want to be with Candice outside of the bedroom will be much harder than possibly any other relationship.
It seems like you might have to discover your sexual identity as well as the impetus for your crossdressing desires.
The professionals you really need to be having a conversation with have PhD behind their names.
You are young. I urge you to go slowly and be careful in whatever path you choose. I hope you seek true professional advice and wish you the best.