Interesting post and thoughts. I have a birthday coming up and “feeling” older. Used to be birthdays were just another day. I often feel younger than I am.
But I do have feelings of lost time and opportunities, and at times feel like I’ve lost sight of myself, who or maybe what I am. Not sure how to handle it all. I don’t know if it’s a dysphoria of some type, or just the normal part of aging.
I’m trying to figure things out, re-find who I am but right now that is a bit fluid.
I do wish I had some time back however, that I know. That I know, is entirely impossible.