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  • #615103
    Raquel Smith
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    Registered On: August 26, 2021
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    So many stories about girls leaving CDH, lately. And quite a few re-introductions of girls returning to the fold.  Got me wondering …

    I have been on and reasonably active since first discovering CDH and creating this account in August 2021.  I didn’t hesitate to create my account, because I believe I immediately saw the tremendously positive effect it could have on my psyche to finally share this part of me with like-minded girls.  I would probably leave only if my wife  discovered everything about my crossdressing (lingerie, makeup, clothing, shoes, frequency and intensity of crossdressing, THIS ACCOUNT) and insisted I stop.

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    • #625493
      Raquel Smith
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      Equal,

      “Wanted and loved and not judged.” That’s no so hard to ask, is it?  Well you are wanted and loved, here.  I always enjoy your posts and comments.

      Much love,

      Raquel

       

      Oops! Meant to reply “Requal”. Damn autocorrect.

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    • #623869
      skippy1965 Cynthia
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      Six and a half years and counting for me. Was member 118 when I joined in August 2015 and am currently the 18th longest still active member. But we certainly welcome our prodigal daughters.
      Cyn

      • #623969
        Raquel Smith
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        In other words, Cynthia, you were there for most us of before we even realized we needed you.  Thank you so much for being the spirit of CDH at the core.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #622731
      Sofía Alejandra Hurtado Espinoza
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      Registered On: January 5, 2022
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      Hola a todas, si esta es mi primer cuenta aqui en CDH y hasta el momento estoy muy contenta y satisfecha, me alegra mucho haber encontrado esta comunidad y espero poder compartir con ella e ir creciendo y desarrollandome por lo que me reste de vida.
      Saludos a todas

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      • #622780
        Gwyneth
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        Registered On: January 21, 2021
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        What did she say?

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        • #622786
          Raquel Smith
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          Gwyneth,

          on an iPad, you can highlight text, then have it translated.

          Sofia said, “Hello everyone, if this is my first account here on CDH and so far I am very happy and satisfied, I am very happy to have found this community and I hope to be able to share with it and grow and develop for what remains of my life.
          Greetings to everyone”

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      • #622766
        Raquel Smith
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        Hola, Sofía. Me alegro de que hayas encontrado CDH. Sé que ha sido maravilloso para mí. Por lo general, hay tal efusión de amor y apoyo, que a veces me abruma. Encantado de conocerte.

         

        Y no, no hablo español. Usé un traductor, así que por favor perdona cualquier error.

         

        Mucho amor,

         

        Raquel

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        • #623012
          Sofía Alejandra Hurtado Espinoza
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          Hola Raquel mucho gusto y no te preocupes, yo, aunque se algo de ingles, prefiero usar el español porque pienso completamente en español y al escribir en ingles me tardo mas tiempo por estar pensando en la forma correcta de escribir lo que pienso, creo que soy un poco perezosa jaja.
          Saludos y mucho amor tambien para ti y para todas

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          • #623125
            Raquel Smith
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            No te preocupes. Hablo suficiente español para pedir una cerveza y preguntar dónde está el baño. La función de traductor en mi iPad de Apple hace el resto. Funciona en ambos sentidos, de español a inglés e inglés a español.

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    • #615874
      Lara Tucker
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      Registered On: September 29, 2021
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      Hi Raquel,

      I have been here for about four months now. I’m on the forums almost every day. I have made friends and talked about things that would never have been possible outside of this heavily address! I don’t see myself leaving. If I felt I had to step back for a bit I would just leave my account open.

      Like you I would also like to be a contributing member, but that paper trail would have to be explained to the SO…

      Love and hugs

      Lara

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      • #615923
        Raquel Smith
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        Lara,

        The support we get, particularly when we share something personal, is wonderful. I hope someday you don’t have to worry about “explaining” anything to your SO, but rather are embraced by her.  That’s my dream, too.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615760
      ChloeC
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      Registered On: November 5, 2019
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      Well, I’ve been on since now well over two years ago, and have tried to be fairly consistent.  Most days I will get on and read various postings, and if I find something where I think I can actually add to the discussion, I will post.  If not, I’ll move on.  I do sometimes not post for several days such as last week, when I was away from home visiting some family on sort of a ‘vacation’ trip – a lot less free time as it were.

      You’re all probably stuck with me for some time to come, as I see no reason to ever leave (unless I happen to experience some gigantic life changing event).  The only other reason I could ever imagine leaving…for good, and not just taking a short break…is if I might allow myself to be put into a position where things might become unsettled which I don’t like at all. I’ve learned enough through life that I’m more aware of seeing that coming and can put a stop to it.

      I do enjoy being here, reading about how all you girls are coping with life, successes, concerns, questions about improving one’s self and sharing my own experiences, all of which have brought me to this place and time in my life.  All to the good, and I hope it continues.

      Hugs
      ChloeC

      • #615922
        Raquel Smith
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        Chloe,

        “reading about how all you girls are coping with life, successes, concerns, questions about improving one’s self and sharing my own experiences,”

        Sharing these moments is what it’s all about.  I love hearing about yours.

        Much love,

        Raquel

         

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    • #615744
      Kimberly Ann Victoria
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      Registered On: September 6, 2021
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      I have been fairly active since I registered 6months ago

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      • #615920
        Raquel Smith
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        Kimberly,

        It’s always nice to hear from you.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615675
      1968 Sonia
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      Registered On: November 14, 2021
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      Hi girls!!!!

      The day after I accepted that I am at least a TV/CD logged in CDH.

      Is a place where with the help of other sisters I simply feel myself naturally girl/woman and I am also able to embrace a femenine energy that makes me more sensible, empathic, and in some way more sensual too.

      I don’t kwow how long I am going to stay ( I hope ñong time) what these two months have been absolutely worthly and helpful.

      Kisses,

       

      Sonia

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      • #615919
        Raquel Smith
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        Sonia,

        I’m glad you feel you can be your true self around us. That’s one of the key reasons I love it here.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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          1968 Sonia
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          Thank you Raquel!!!

          And thanks also for answering in spanish to Sofia.

          Sometimes is difficult to express our feelings in a lenguage that is not ours. Sisters help understunding a lot but somrtimes we write wrongly or too academic.

          Un Beso y un abrazo!!!

          Sonia

          Y si vienes a España estas invitada a una cerveza!!!!

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          • #623980
            Raquel Smith
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            A kiss and a hug to you, too!

            I don’t speak much Spanish, but I can read a little.

            Much love,

            Raquel

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    • #615500
      Michelle Skylar
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      Registered On: March 18, 2021
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      I have been here (first time) for almost one year.

      I joined looking for answers more than advise. I never formally introduced myself because I’m kind of shy and at the time really didn’t know what to say. Early on I really didn’t post very much as I was mostly reading and searching. I have tried to be more active here lately when I felt there was something I could add to a conversation.

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      • #615649
        Raquel Smith
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        Michelle,

        We all have something to add and we love hearing from you.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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      • #615512
        Gwyneth
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        Registered On: January 21, 2021
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        You just might have an answer someone is looking for!

        Gwyn

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    • #615393
      Elaine
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      Registered On: September 2, 2015
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      I have been a member since 2015. Took a short sabbatical once after a purge but was back within a month. I’m on chat nearly everyday, post pictures often, and read thru the forums. I also think it is important to be a paying member to help cover the cost of running the website. There is sometimes a little drama. I am saddened when it seems we all can’t get along, but I suppose that is part of group dynamics. Over the years I’ve seen many ladies come and go, and many stay of course. It’s delightful to see a newcomer arrive and watch them grow. Those that left I hope they are okay. Don’t know the reasons they are gone but I wish them well. This lifestyle is a struggle on many levels. Bless you all for the friendship and fellowship (is there a feminine tense for ‘fellow’ship?).

      • #616482
        Marianne
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        The closest I can come up with is sisterhood.

        Marianne Tornander

      • #615650
        Raquel Smith
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        Elaine,

        I’ve never used the chat room.  It seems to be too “stream-of-consciousness” for me.  I stick with the forums where I can be away for a day or two and catch up on most stuff when I return.

        BTW there doesn’t appear to be a famine version of fellowship. Academia considers it gender neutral.  The word fellow as a nickname of sorts for men developed much later than fellowship. This is based on just a bit of Googling.

        If I could pay without it showing up on our shared credit card account statement, I’d love to financially support CDH.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615372
      Lacy Satin
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      Registered On: June 27, 2018
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      I joined CH years ago but like many other groups where I thought I could find likeminded people, I just forgot I joined.

      Recently I rediscovered this group that I had no idea I joined years ago. I now find great pleasure coming here every morning and spend time sharing my secret life as a crossdresser. I find it very liberating to be totally open with others about the pleasures I get from crossdressing and enjoying feeling feminine.

      I love commenting on as many posts as I can relate to. It’s such a wonderful feeling to just let your most deepest inner feelings and thoughts out. It almost feels as good as putting on a dress and going out in public.

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      • #615651
        Raquel Smith
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        Lacy,

        Thanks for sharing.

         

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615346
      Ashley
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      I first joined in 2019 because I had a major purge and then started cross dressing again only a few weeks later. I thought it would be best to try to understand this part of myself so I signed up here and I’ve had so many great discussions since 🙂

      I’ve spent a few weeks away here and there, mostly when I didn’t have much time to be online.

      My time here began with a purge of my women’s things… I can now say that I’ve actually purged part of my male wardrobe, a little while ago I got rid of my boxers 🙂

      • #615362
        Raquel Smith
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        Ashley,

        It’s always nice to see you. And if you ever have the urge to purge, again, message me and I’ll talk you out of it (or at least give you my address, so you can send it to me 😉).

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615330
      Requal Joanne
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      Registered On: December 15, 2020
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      I joined in December 2020 and have been active since.   I enjoy the interaction with the other residents and love reading their posts and replying in kind.   The support I have felt through my interaction has been great and it is nice to have an avenue where I can feel wanted and loved and not judged.   Thank you so much for all the ‘thank you’ to my posts.

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      • #615361
        Raquel Smith
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        Equal,

        “Wanted and loved and not judged.” That’s no so hard to ask, is it?  Well you are wanted and loved, here.  I always enjoy your posts and comments.

        Much love,

        Raquel

         

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        • #615836
          Requal Joanne
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          It is a wonderful and beautiful feeling to have when visiting this Heavenly Address Raquel.

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    • #615298
      Revel
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      Registered On: December 5, 2020
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      Good question, Raquel

      I have been on and active since first registering. CDH was the first CD site that I registered Revel with back on December 2020, and it’s the only CD site that I’m currently on. As explained in my second article, CDH and the sisters here are like family to me. I love the kindness and support that has been shown to me by the sisters. I love this Girl Gang here. 🙂

      XOXO Rev

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      • #615303
        Raquel Smith
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        Revel,

        You said it.  The girls here are the best.  I love ‘em, too.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615237
      Alice Underwire
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      Registered On: September 16, 2019
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      Hi Raquel,

      I’ve been reasonably active since joining CDH the first time.  Haven’t dropped and returned.

      Alice

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      • #615293
        Raquel Smith
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        Hi Alice,

        And I’m so glad you’re here.

        Much love,

        Raquel

         

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    • #615234
      Angela Booth
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      This is the first site I have joined. I sat back and saw what was happening and then started to post. It’s a big community and it has had its ups and downs. The core of the site is support. We may get new people coming in and ask the same questions and it will be repetitious. That is part of it as they will never know what has been written before and it is important to them. Help and advice is the centre pin and why we are here. No ones opinion is worth more than another, the recipient will have a myriad of replies which, hopefully will answer the question and give them food for thought. We can all learn and get some great tips here too. It can pick us up when we are down and of course – You are not alone.

      • #615291
        Raquel Smith
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        Angela, yes, the support and advice here are spot on, for the most part.

        Much love,

        Raquel

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    • #615164
      Heather Megan
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      Registered On: May 15, 2020
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      This is my first and only account. I’m mostly a FT CD/TG so the support here is a natural part of my life at this point. That said, It’s not unusual to take time where I only lurk or outright dont login for days to a week or 2. That’s just my natural position on social media in general though

      Heather

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      • #615190
        Raquel Smith
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        I agree, Heather, that logging in here, is the only support I receive for my crossdressing and has become a home-away-from-home.  I do tend to check in at least every 3 or 4 days, at the longest, though.  More like daily or every other day.

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    • #615154
      Michelle McQueen
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      Hi Raquel.

      In the past my dressing fever has risen and fallen but always came back soon enough and usually stronger. As I’ve gotten older I seem to be in a permanent state of more fem than male now so I don’t believe I’ll be leaving CDH anytime soon. I’ve only been here for less than a year. I love reading all the other girls experiences and in turn expressing myself so unless I’m kicked out for some reason I’ll be here looking for that next post.

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      • #615191
        Raquel Smith
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        I especially like reading about actively supportive SOs and dreaming that mine will be like that some day.  Of course, I’d have to come out to her, first.

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        • #615192
          Michelle McQueen
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          Hi Raquel.

          I hope you can come out to the wife one day and find shes surprisingly supportive.

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    • #615140
      Marti
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      Registered On: February 5, 2019
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      Hi Raquel,

      It was a good day when I found cdh. Like many here, I’d feel a lot more isolated without it. And yes, people disappear for a variety of reasons. It’s a bit strange when you don’t see what were once regular posters around. But to counter that, there seems to always be new voices appear to add to the mix.

      I’m on my first sign up, and post pretty regularly. I did think of leaving once, and thought I was serious. It was a little crisis of confidence, but thanks to the sensible influence of some of the members here,  I realised it would have been a bad decision..

      I also did a ‘time out’ out last summer. I felt maybe I was getting too much into the forum, and forgetting there was real life out there – mind you, I’ve seen this sort of thing happen on other forums too, I don’t think it’s cdh, rather just the nature of forums ( or is it just a human trait?)

      So I challenged myself to stay away for a month. And as soon as I’d succeeded, I was back again, lol. It wouldn’t surprise me if I did something similar in the future. It never hurts to stand back and take stock once in a while. But that’s not the same as leaving.

      Marti xxx

      • #615193
        Raquel Smith
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        Marti, finding and joining CDH was the best day of my crossdressing life.  I love meeting girls like you and feeling like I’m “one of the girls,” too.

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    • #615123
      Nancy Gamms
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      In late 2016 I realized that I was not going to purge again.  This gift/curse was not going away.  In I joined here in Feb 2017 and have stayed and will not leave.

      In the late 90s early 2000s i was on another message board and did leave it for a number of years (4-6?) only to come back to it.

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      • #615289
        Raquel Smith
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        Nancy, as long as you’re staying, I guess I will, too.

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    • #615115
      Alison Anderson
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      I too have been relatively active since joining.  Sure, I may have gone a few days with barely any activity when real life gets in the way.  But I’m drawn back in.

      Unless there was something detrimental about leaving the account open, I don’t see a reason for me to delete the account.  If I should find at some point it no longer fits me, it doesn’t do any harm just leaving it open but inactive.  Unless I was inactive for an extended period (months if not years), I’d just let it be.

      To me, deleting the account is like purging.  You can do away with the physical, but the need will still be there, and there will usually come a time when the need for the physical overwhelms you and you wish you hadn’t purged in the first place.

      • #615287
        Raquel Smith
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        Alison, purging sux for sure.  Doesn’t it?  😉

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        • #615861
          Alison Anderson
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          Fortunately I’ve only had to do a half purge once.  When my ex found my stuff, she threw it all out.  But being the one who takes out the garbage, I found what she did and retrieved about half the items and let the other half go.  That’s the closest I’ve had to a purge.

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      Gwyneth
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      My desire to CD is much different from many here. My reason will come and go. Like now, I haven’t replied to any post in quite a while. Now I feel like I will be on the site more. My desire is rising again.

      I don’t know if I’m making sense.

      Gwyn

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        Stephanie Lake
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        Registered On: September 20, 2021
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        Gwyn,

        I’m the same, it comes in waves. I go a few months where, other than underdressing and admiring women’s clothing, I don’t think that much about it. Then, for no reason I can think of, it hits me. All I can think about is wanting to go shopping and buy dresses and other women’s clothing. I want to learn makeup and act feminine. That will last for a few months, then go away. wish I knew why.

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          Gwyneth
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          Registered On: January 21, 2021
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          Don’t know if this is appropriate, but I have gone from looking at beautiful women thinking I would love to go out with her to I wish I could BE her. That doesn’t go away for me. But the desire in my life to dress does come and go.

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            Raquel Smith
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            Gwyneth,

            I think many of us can relate to what you are saying.  The pink fog rolls in and rolls back out for a lot of girls here.  For me personally, it’s always there.  I’ve underdressed in panties consistently for years, now.

            On the other topic, looking at women with envy vs. lust also makes sense.  Especially when the urge to crossdress is strong.  We (at least some of us) yearn to be seen as a girl, so admiring a pretty GG and wanting to be like her fits in with that.

            I just hope we get to enjoy your company regardless of how you are feeling.

            Much love,

            Raquel

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            Gwyneth
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            Thanks Raquel. I will always be close by. I wish I had more comfort sharing my reasoning for all this.

            Gwyn

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            1968 Sonia
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            Hi Gwyneth,

            It was absolutely confusing for me to think that I desired a woman in X kind of clothes or underwear to realize that I wanted me to be tha woman dreessed in that way.

            And In this moment it is even more confusing for me that wanting to be a woman I am beggining to strongly desire a man ( never before) when I am crossdressing.

            I thik is part of accepting the androgyn myself.

            And difficult to manage being married with a woman.

            Anything you need I am here

            Kisses

            Sonia

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            Gwyneth
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            Thx for replying Sonia. Truth be told, my CD desire comes from my desire for a man. I kinda got the cart before the horse, maybe!

            Gwyn

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            1968 Sonia
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            In my case I always kept my sexual desires under a strict control and repression…. something was terrible beyond opening 100% to my sexuality….

            In my case beyond was Sonia and her/ my desires to reach my complete sexuality

            It is wjete I am now but I think is not a questipn of reason or organizing ourserlves with order.

            I think that Sexuality is the last hiden place where myself shouted to be….

            Kisses

            Sonia

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