I've been crossdressing since I was 7. My mom caught me a few times dressing up in her clothes in my pre teens. The desire went away for a few decades. Came back in my 40's when I was single again. Now in my late 50's engaged with children - the desire has come back. I love the calmness I feel when I dress up. I'm sure I should have been a girl. I don't get to be totally alone too often but when I do - I have a few dresses I keep my happy