Renea St. Claire
Im Renea, I live in Darwin - Australia and am 59 I thought I would like to share some of my thoughts and feelings as I identify with the journey we have all experienced to this point in our lives.
I first started dressing (secretly) at age 8. I didnt know why I liked it for years and thought I was the only boy in the world who did it. In my teen years I stopped as I thought I should be the man I was supposed to be. I married in my late 20’s and then I started to explore my partners wardrobe (when alone).
Dressing en-femme to me was never a sexual thing but more a sense of feeling happy and peaceful. Fast forward some years to a fully internet savvy world, is when I discovered I was not alone in dealing with this desire to be who I really am. On-line shopping allowed me to access the things that helped me elevate/accelerate my passion for my femininity, Im sure you know what accessories Im refering to.
Over the years I have read many experiences of others, some, like me remained closeted for many years and of others who have understanding partners/family/friends that allowed for a more freedom of expression. My life has evolved very quickly in the last few years, separating from my partner, moving interstate and finally retiring from work. I now live alone and dress every day as a matter of daily routine. I live in a very small town but am a very private person so when I go out dressed when shopping or dining or just an outing nobody ever associates Renea with me (and nor do I care)
Since May 2018 I began to grow my own hair (it was originally a crew cut), because I found my head got quite warm from wearing a wig for long periods. Also it was difficult to maintain a wigs neatness. Its a work in progress and would eventually like around shoulder length. I also shave my chest and under my arms, also my legs and forearms and utterly enjoy the smoothness of my body.
The most satisfying thing I have ever experienced in my journey is the knowledge that there are many like me that share a common desire.
We are all different in our approach to enjoying our feminine selfs, so I believe its not the actual exterior we see (no matter how good or bad) its the doing that brings the joy.
Also I believe that those of us who have turned that corner, truly understand and feel comfortable about who we are !!! Its taken some time but I am now really happy xxx. ( My recent pics can be found in the groups: Over 50's, Share Your Outfit and Australia )
My stats (not that anyone really cares):
5'6" (167cm) - 110lb (50kg) - Bra, 34C - Dress, AUS Sz 10/(US Sz 6) - Shoe, Sz 6 1/2
UPDATE (8 Feb 22) I am now going out in public regularly. I dont get any looks or stares so Im taking it (maybe mistakenly) that I am not getting 'made'. Maybe I am but people just dont care. However when I try to take pics of myself...people do look and I get odd looks so I have desisted doing this, which is dissapointing as I want to share my experiences with you all.