I am unsure. I think for me it was initially just thr clothes let’s face it they look much better and the choice by comparison OMG.
It probably then grew into a desire to want to wear them more and more but then because of societies views becomes the requirement to be passable and that brings with it a whole other package. Ironically I have just returned from a grocery shopping trip and stood socially distanced of course behind two ladies.
One dressed possibly to go to the office in a smart dress, hosiery and Gorgeous high heel boots. In front of her was another lady in a hoodie with jogging bottoms, clothes I could have just as easily worn without anyone taking a second glance.
But I did not want to be her I wanted the dress and heels.
Unless I had been passable that would have attracted lots of strange looks.
Think I ended up rambling a bit there girls 💋