Welcome Cindy Lou
Cindy is one of my favourite names. This is great place for finding your way. Finding your way to your feminine self is a wondrous journey. I think what you said about separating the sexual aspect of dressing up from who you are as a woman is very challenging and the two are often intertwined. This has been much the same for me. As I find out more about what kind of girl Jill is, the more these two things separate and the sexual part becomes just that, a part of Jill.
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