Thank you Araminta I do wanting all that as for surgery knowing outcome can be tricky like say life or death. And really believe willing to take that chance. Gone this far need to go all the way. Or I know will be kicking myself for rest of life for not doing it. Guess instead of thinking of others around me need to think of what I want. Know long road of recovery but will it be worth it. I suppose listening to My Dr and then reading things on net about all this the pros and cons and the fails gets to a person need to stop looking at it all. and go through it. Really do deep down want to do it no matter what. Thank you really open my eyes on all this. And 99.99 % going to do it. Wanting to be the woman that dreamt to be.