Thank you for offering the female perspective. You kinda got my feelings and issues on point … My biggest guilt and worry is that my wife is unknowingly the victim in this case. And I want to rectify it before it gets worse.
But like i mentioned before .. the challenge is to balance ‘my time’ and giving my partner her time. Totally cutting off from my pleasure would also not be ideal as it wont put me in the right frame of mind.