I can relate to you saying people used to recoil at you giving them a pat or touch on the arm or shoulder. I’ve felt the same way and gotten those “WTF are you doing” looks too. Some guys are so homophobic its funny.
Touching and sharing is a female trait and your crying so easily is too. In some situations I get emotional so much I can’t speak or I would be crying and I wish I weren’t so emotional.