Topic: 1000 cuts, 1000 scars – Crossdresser Heaven

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- September 20, 2019 at 11:14 pm #225175
  Natasha Mari
  This is another dark poem. Read at your own risk.
  - Every little jab
  - Bruises my ego
  - Every little poke
  - Pierces my skin
  - Every little dig
  - Hurts deeper and deeper
  - Every insult hurled
  - Leaves me crippled and weak
  - Why was I picked
  - To deserve everyone’s ire
  - Why was I chosen
  - To walk in the fire
  - I never asked
  - To be a punching bag
  - With every hundredth cut
  - My brilliant smile starts to fade
  - What doesn’t kill you
  - Makes you stronger
  - Then why is it
  - My life I no longer desire
  - After a thousand little cuts
  - I lose sight of a bright future
  - Like a diamond in the rough
  - Unpolished, unshined, stressed and losing luster
  - Cold, callous, cynic and depressive
  - This is what is left when you finally relented
  - A shell of myself
  - Forgetting what I am suppose to be
  - Wondering why you stopped
  - The abuse, torture, torment was starting to be comforting
  - I picked up the mantle and started cutting me
  - Because it felt empty being pain free
  - Time has passed
  - The pain has subsided
  - The thousand wounds are still open
  - As I’ve come to realize
  - Recollecting the past, poring salt on the sores
  - Reimagining the pain I begin to feel
  - How many more cuts must I endure
  - So my thousand scars can finally heal
- September 20, 2019 at 11:45 pm #225176
  Anonymous
  I took the risk … Survived & really enjoyed reading it , u wish I could write so well xx Tiff
  - September 20, 2019 at 11:52 pm #225177
    Natasha Mari
    Thank you Tiff. Since coming to this site, I have been writing again which really helps therapeutically. I wish I didn’t always write so deep, dark and depressive but it is the writing that comes easiest to me. Write what you know, well…
  - September 20, 2019 at 11:52 pm #225178
    Anonymous
    I’m going through more of your poetry , especially the dark ones ☺️
  - September 20, 2019 at 11:54 pm #225179
    Natasha Mari
    I am going to see if I can find some of my older writings when I was doing lyrics for garage bands I was in and post them up.
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- November 1, 2019 at 7:26 pm #242902
  Ruby Smith
  Lady
  This is beautiful to me, it may be cause I can relate, but beautiful never the less.
- November 1, 2019 at 8:18 am #242759
  Natasha Mari
  Thank you Tiff, sometimes we forget that dark is also beautiful if you put the right light on it.
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