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A couple of months ago, before no-touch was even anticipated, I went out for dinner—Chinese—with a friend I enjoy meeting. When I travel I bring back for him stones which he collects. He finds perfect ones boring, so I look for random pebbles, unpredictable. We share an interest in Hindu mysticism, gardening and chess. While we had always had an easy and lively conversation, this last time was different, disquietingly intense. I should mention he is good looking and his eyes attractive. Time flew. It had grown dark. I accompanied him to his car, parked closer than mine. He suddenly embraced me and I felt his smooth and warm cheek next to mine. My whole body dissolved into a powerful and immensely sweet light. There was no before and no after to that moment. It was dazzlingly unique. It is still going on for me. My friend said nothing, turned away and walked to his car.
In days that followed I noticed a shift in the tone of our messages. We still spoke about images in far away temples and museums, about the best flowers to plant at this time of the year or a stunning ending in a Carlsen game. But he asked about meeting again soon. Our emojis had become more passionate, almost imperceptibly, from 🙏🤗 to 🔥💥🌹🦋💖. And then he wrote: ‘I have sensed a simpatico and tenderness toward you man to man’. I know he is gay and I realized I was misleading him. I don’t have many friends. I did not want to lose him, but I could not continue not telling him a truth I had only told my wife and my virtual friends here. Could I avoid and hide?
So I replied: ‘Man to man does not work because I am very feminine, a spiritual trans… I am also very married to a wife I very much love and she would detect instantly that I am fascinated by you…’
I included a photograph of myself, Valerie, adding ‘I hope you are not offended. 💋’.
Almost an hour went by and he replied: ‘You,indeed do not offend me. This is fine. The photo is beautiful, dear. I still love you though. Like from the beginning’.
I was shaken, thrilled, stunned, and an hour later I wrote, ‘You make me very happy with your reply’.
Have you had a similar time of revelation? How did it go?
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