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So first let me start by saying I’m a disaster . A good friend of mine on CDH knows about my neighbor Ricardo and what happened on Thanksgiving while my wife was away with family. I went out for coffee that morning came home got dressed up as sexy Candy enjoyed some music in my living room when someone Ricardo enters the house ( I left the garage door open) with no where to go he sees me long story short he said it will be our little secret . We had dinner that night chatted and innocently enjoyed each other’s company . The next night he invited me over but as Candace , once again we chatted , he’s so easy to talk too ( he’s 70, in great shape ) quite the gentleman. I had one glass of wine too much and while on the couch I leaned in to kiss him. He kindly backed away and said this isn’t proper I know you love your wife and under any other circumstance nit would be different for him. I was embarrassed but thankful . He walked me home gave me a kiss on the cheek and that was that . We never discussed it again. Fast forward to two nights ago, my wife is away for the week I invite Ricardo over for dinner, asking him if he was ok with me being Candace for the evening, he actually was quite insistent. Once again we chatted laughed had wine, but I could tell something was on his mind. He said he’s been thinking about me since our last encounter and although he knows it’s not right to give him just 30 seconds to show me something. I said ok and he pulled me in and kissed me, I did not pull back engaging the entire time. He then asked me if he felt what I felt and I said what was that and he said it felt so right, I could not lie to him and told him I enjoyed it immensely. We moved to the couch we’re we proceeded to kiss again and explore things . The feel of his hand on my silky leg while he held and kissed me was like nothing I ever experienced in my entire 52 years of existence. To feel so vulnerable, sexy, seductive and safe in this mans arms was surreal. We “caressed”‘each other for sometime when I grabbed his hand and said come with me. He asked where are we going and I put my finger on his lips to shush him. I opened the door to the bedroom and that’s when this wonderful gentleman said now is not the time it is important that we just process what has transpired and leave it there for now . I thanked him , tear in eye but appreciated it so much what was I doing I loved my wife my next friend and just started to the process of letting her know about my dressing I couldn’t do this to her. The feeling of being held by Ricardo was very strong though and it was then that I knew I was most definitely at least bi-curious. I tingled , I was shaking we walked back to the couch snuggled and made out more but no further. Ricardo left a few hours later and today I ponder my actions .What have i done? At this point the least of my worries is telling my wife about my dressing . I can’t stop thinking about that wonderful feeling with Ricardo!!! What do I do ? I know it maybe hard to believe but I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for the world , but I can’t stop thinking about being that woman the other night with Ricardo!! Ugh!!! Ugh!!
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