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Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Cured? Interesting word choice. Six years abstinence, I get it. Did you think of dressing in that time and just not act?
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Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I chose heavy metal vis-à-vis jazz as much for the “jam session” aspect as for the dichotomy of structure and the sound palette. I had my rivets removed in 1983, so I am not at all up on current heavy metal.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I hear you on the advance and retreat thing, and I fully get you on the masculine body and wishing for something more feminine. I love being Lindsey, and I would like to give in to her more. Trouble is that could wind up being 24/7 thing and definite radical changes in my life. I can’t say fear is why I purged electronic accounts though.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic Is your girl side consuming your thoughts and desires? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I have those feelings as well–somewhat often. Alas, HRT and other interventions aren’t for me. I spent about six weeks over summer of 2020 seriously considering radical changes in my life.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Wish I could figure how to edit down a quoted post to just the salient parts I want to respond to. Oh well.
I’ve come close to coming clean on numerous occasions. Thankfully, I have been able to quell that rash impulsiveness. Gots to have a plan. On good days, I think she would accept it. On regular days that is just wishful thinking–or so I…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Well, I have certainly experienced shame and guilt, but there is little to none with this. I am going to have to ruminate on the acceptance aspect.
As for purging, I have only purged clothing one time. That was an impulsive buy, and I wildly guessed wrong on sizes. Returning would have been more trouble than it was worth, so I just pitched…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic Is your girl side consuming your thoughts and desires? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
No therapy for me yet either, and so far nothing I would call dysphoria as I understand it. It is who I am as I am experiencing it, but it IS NOT WHO I AM. It’s ineffable. It is part fantasy like as a child being a policeman, fireman, NFL player or soldier, and it is part alter-reality high. And I am unsure if it is innocuous or deleterious.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Ha. Well my analogy has application, but it doesn’t line up point for point. I’m not a guitarist, and while I do dig some heavy metal it is not my forte. Those were just the first two genres that popped into my head that had obvious contrasts. Classical and heavy metal would have contrasted, but I don’t think classical players hold jam sessions.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I am all about systematic desensitization. That’s how I have managed to get as far as I have. KP duty has always pretty much been my bailiwick, and I am more involved in cooking. Question is how to slow-creep into wearing more feminine apparel? Yeah, I am a devious deviant. Pretty much have to be. I am ambivalent about that: I hate the duplicity…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Sweet LOL. I’ve not thought about them in decades.
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Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
There are plenty of days when Lindsey rules. Sometimes, it is downright scary-overwhelming–it’s like another personality. Mentally and to some degree emotionally, I can fully embrace her. Outwardly, movements and so forth, not so much. I mostly just know heavy metal riffs, and I have no aptitude for this jazz thing.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I think what makes me unusual is that I had no inkling this part of me might be there until three years ago: I mean none. Yeah, I did the Sears and Penny’s catalogs too: one pass looking at only revealed skin and straight to toy section. That all would have been preteen. I don’t remember looking at those after age ten or eleven. Never thought of…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis started the topic If You Can't Dres, How Would You Express Your Inner-Girl in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I’ve come to this rather late in life–57 to be exact. I am married with kids still at home, and the pandemic pretty much coincided with the emergence of Lindsey. To say I am confounded, confused and generally muddleheaded would be an understatement. I am looking for ways to express what I sometimes feel but in a more covert manner. I can get away…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
LOL. Purged the cell phone. I would do that if I had one to purge. Better off without one.
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Cyclical, I agree. Not sure if it is a moon phase thing or sun spots or what.
Thus far, my purges have only been as an online member of forums and so forth. As far as Lindsey goes, all I can do is the mental part and a very little externally: scents, shaving and the like. Anything further would be reckless and probably ruinous. Circumstance and…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Interesting. Could you elaborate on that–at the risk of sounding like a school teacher?
Could it maybe be the other way around as in “this isn’t really who I am?” I am sure I am not alone here with this aspect of my story, but I also bet it isn’t the most common. I was 57 before I ever had any ideas along these lines. I can’t be absolutely…[Read more]
Lindsey Davis replied to the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
I am speaking more of a reflex rejection not a scaling back for this or that reason. It’s more a rejection, denial or return to ante dress status quo–an attempt to quash the inner-girl, deny her, reject her.
Lindsey Davis started the topic What Triggers Your Purge Reflex? in the forum General Chat "Life as it Goes On" 2 years ago
Hi,
I am new here and hope I selected the right place.
One of the first posts I read in this tour was from someone who had previously had account(s) here and had deleted those and resubscribed. Others confirmed same actions as can I. I think this is my third time I have signed up. And I’ve had and deleted accounts on other like minded sites.…[Read more]
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